Today was good.

Today I wondered about some serious things

Today I lost something important

Today I worried alot

Today I died alittle more inside

Today I laughed

Today I prayed and almost cried

Today I praised God, but then found out I was wrong about what I was praising him for, and stumbled over myself trying to not take back the praise, but still disparage the cruel joke God had played on me (if it was God at all)

Today I saw a girl, but was too afraid to talk to her

Today I got some new music

Today I realized that I really didn't remember what it felt like to be hugged and to really hug back until yesterday. Maybe I will do that more often. It will take some getting used to. I have been giving side-hugs for a really long time.

Today I wondered what is worth saying, what is worth thinking. Am I limiting myself by limiting my thoughts

Today I wondered about what is with us, and if it is with us all at once, or if it makes rounds.

Today I might have encountered that black thing, but I ignored it. Like it doesn't even matter. I bet Gavin doesn't think much about it either. I wonder if it still watches him, too. We had some weird times together. I think our friendship can never be broken, except if God specifically decides to allow it to be

Maybe I just keep my eyes lower on the horizon.

"My heart can't see out through these cloudy windows. I would gouge them out for us to see each other better."