i am so out of it RIGHT NOW. I am going to bed as soon as i finish this blog.

what happened today? nothing really. well, no. stuff happened. i can talk now. i called my korean teacher like she said to, like i said i would. she woke up for the call. lol. i am done with lent. i have a lot to write about and no time to write it. that is just too much to review all at once.

I went to a dance tonight, and I messed up alot, but it was lots of fun.

When I got back, I talked to the guy who invited me to that church with the speaking in tongues. I talked to him for like 30 minutes, and afterwards on the way back to the dorm I kinda tried babbling to myself alittle just to see if I could do it with the same feeling as I did that one time. It didn't really work. When I got to my dorm room I felt really agitated at nothing and I immediately left to go to spear chapel. When I walked through the doors of the chapel, I felt really heavy, and I kinda fell over. I had a panic attack in the prayer room, but it was more than that. More like a heart attack or a seizure. I prayed the whole time for God to get rid of it if it wasn't him, or to make it happen faster if it was. I am not thinking clearly right now. I am still having a little bit of trouble breathing. I feel like my lung collapsed and then came back or something. Not that I am linking that with speaking in tongues or anything, but I think praying helped. I sat and prayed for about 30 mins I think after that. Then I came back and did laundry and told my roommate that I think God is doing something really cool, really soon.. and to be honest I don't know where that came from either, because I don't know what God is doing, and I sure hope it's cool, and I sure hope it's soon. I feel God telling me something, but I just am not hearing it. I have been praying alot about this church --whether I will go to it or not. I am afraid even for that.

I wish I was a better piano player. If I was really good, I would seriously drop out of school, find a nice coffee shop in need of a live pianist, and I think I would just stay there for the rest of my life.

I have computer science homework due tomorrow, which I haven't done. I have english homework due on tuesday, which I haven't done. I have physics homework due on wednesday, and I told myself I would do a problem every night, but I haven't done one tonight. Right now, I just feel dizzy and tired and sweaty and I have a headache behind my ears. I am going to sleep.