We had our floor sisters over tonight --hangin out in the lobby. They brought us cookies and it was fun. My friend Sean, with whom I got my hair died black, is now dating the girl who died our hair. They thanked me for introducing them. They are moving really fast, like, they are pretty much all over each other, but I haven't seen them kiss. Maybe they arent doing that, maybe they were sparing us any worse awkward than we already had.

Maybe I am just paranoid, but I am getting more and more confident that Someone is putting on my headphones when I'm not around, because I keep having to re-adjust the sizing. I guess it isn't such a big deal, but I told my roommate to please not mess with them because they are expensive. I am really getting the feeling that he is trying to get rid of me, and our suitemates by being deliberately grouchy -- there is a good chance that we will be shuffling rooms when/if I leave for Korea, and I am beginning to think my roommate doesnt want me back.

To be honest, I really didn't know if I wanted to stay in this dorm when I came back from Korea anyways. (and I might switch dorms when I come back next summer). It is just that.. there are a few people here who I really like, but most of them have left, and I feel like slowly, this dorm is narrowing itself down to being just people who I don't particularly like. .. I mean, well, they are my friends, but I don't consider myself to be very close to them, and I don't see myself getting much closer, and.. well, I just can't see myself becoming really good friends with a good percentage of the people here.

Solution: move to a new dorm, right? no. I really didn't like alot of the people I knew and hung out with in highschool, I didn't like alot of my friends in elementary school. I just don't like people in general, I don't even like myself. lol, if any of you happen to know me on facebook, a good example is to look up my friend John Allred. He is one of my best friends, and I hung out with him and his brother and a friend down the street almost exclusively in Alabama, but ask any one of us and we can tell you that we really hate each other, to this day, but we have learned to get along to the point that we would be suffering a loss if we ceased contact. Now, I know how to have a good time and enjoy myself around people, and every now and then I come across someone who I just really connect with (in my entire life, I could probably count those on one hand.... MAYBE two hands...). So the point is, if I go to a new dorm, I wont like them either. It will just mean that I will have to get used to new idiosyncrasies and cope with a new roommate.

A question comes to mind, though. If I get a new roommate next time I am here, what can I change about myself? What is it that I have done that might make my current roommate not want me around? well.... I really don't know... I will ask him as soon as I can talk.

This is my first post about other people on this blog.. I honestly didn't mean to time this right after the other people in my dorm came decided to start reading my blog, hahaha, but it is a true, honest coincidence that this is what is on my mind tonight. is it wise for me to post this way right now? Probably not, but if I am not true to myself on my blog, if I can't write what I honestly think even here, then I will more than likely lose interest in blogging here, and write somewhere else, or not at all.

"...but every time I hear your voice, I die a little inside..."