This is post #70.

I have 7 days left of Lent.

I have spent the past 5 hours racking my brain. That assignment will be turned in late.

The album I am listening to has roughly 12 more minutes left.

It is my 3rd playthrough of this list tonight.

The list itself is 2.2 hours.

It is 2:20AM

I need some sleep. I would still be working on my homework right now, but I cannot think straight enough to come up with any half-decent algorithms right now.

I have a hootenany skit, which I am doing with some people I don't know, and a person I do know. That's going to be fun. The skit is called "silent monks sing hallelujah" Today I have been thinking about the way people attribute things to themselves. For example, my hootenany skit. Every day, I reevaluate small parts of my self-perceived identity by observing my own behavior in situations. Sometimes, I am surprised by the way I act, and sometimes I am not. This is usually a pretty subconscious process, and it is not often that I am really very shocked at all by something that I do. Maybe more often than some people, but whatever. When I signed up for the hootenany skit, I reevaluated a part of my identity, specifically (and very abstractly) my sense of belonging. When I identify myself, I am now Zac Slade, son, brother, student, Christian, roommate, etc. etc. etc. etc. "LU" in the hootenany skit. Furthermore, I almost never identify myself all at once. I do it on a purely case-by-case basis. Someone asks me my name, I give that to them and probably don't think of much else.

But back to the person as a whole. (I am referencing myself, because I am the sole subject of my observations here. Maybe other people are the same way, maybe not.) How much do the small parts of our identity, like that one, effect our personality, our responsiveness and our attitude? I guess, little things don't individually, but maybe alot of them will....... Someone who excels in several small, but noticeable, areas might lean toward becoming conceited... Someone who does the opposite might lean the opposite.. but more abstract than that..... I can't hold onto the idea I am trying to write down right now.... got it. A person who... heh. lost it again.

I am almost out of toothpicks.... I need some more.

goodnight

"and you never feel good or bad, only strange and unprepared --because you never saw it coming or it leaving."