Listening to Hazakim tonight. Some of their stuff is a little bit confusing, because their goal seems to be to share the gospel in a way that addresses modern Jewish arguments against Christianity (like, their song "don't forget the ayin" has me all kinds of confused). Kinda digging this track though:

I don't like the sampling in this next one, but man, the lyrics are really awesome. Also, I'm a big fan of Ken Ham.

Last one -- I like this next track a lot. I'm not a fan of the hook, but there's no perfect song.

Today I was a little bit anxious to be outside of the place where I'm staying. I took a walk down to the nearest Starbucks, and immediately on arrival, I regretted not bringing a book with me. It was a good 10-15 minute walk, one way.

The words "God is doing something cool, I just have to wait and see what it is" always feel like their on the tip of my tongue, making my lips itch. I've said it so many times to people who tell me "man your situation sucks so bad". But I realized as I was writing this -- I haven't said it to any of the atheists who told me that. When my coworkers told me, "man Zac, your situation is so bad, I can't believe you're staying sane", I just shrugged and said "well..." and let the conversation move past it. The topic made me uncomfortable. I'm like two different people, depending on who I'm around. I hate that about myself. God rescue me from this duality!

Everyone has a different opinion on how we should be handling it, but when my brother told me about it, he gave me so much to think about. He approaches these situations in a way that's so different from what anyone else tells me to do -- it's refreshing, but I have no idea how to respond. It makes me want to go spend more time in PA, so that I can learn that culture and be able to respond to it. He is likely right, though. So right that I don't want to say anything about it here. I have to wait until the right time to play my cards, I think.

"Who is this that obscures my plans with words without knowledge?"