Today I went Christmas shopping for my family. Also, Chowon texted me for the first time in a few days. I miss her especially a lot these past few days. We had planned to see each other every day this week, but we haven't had much conversation at all.

After a lot of thought on the semi-one-sidedness of our conversations lately.... (I've written and rewritten this post) I decided that it's totally ok. She is working hard. I remember how stressful it was to go to Korea for the first time, and I believe that she is under as much or more stress given the nature of her circumstances. On top of that, she's working hard to what end? To come and see me for ten days^^. Furthermore due to the strong contrast between the last week of school and my time here (tons of work vs nothing to do all week) I'm sitting here with nothing to do but brood so my instincts are not reliable.

So, what I decided to do is: {Oh, btw, Dylan Apple texted me yesterday and broke the loneliness. Thanks Dylan. I didn't have to go piano hunting at the mall.} ... Oh. Ok. So what I decided to do, or more, what I decided not to do... I'm not gonna stop texting her. My impulse is to think "It's her turn to text me." But on the other hand... I'm the man, right? It's my job to pursue. One or two texts per day is not weird since it's to my girlfriend (sans response: alittle). And since she isn't available lately I won't ask her questions in them, because I don't want to put more pressure on her to remember if she's in a meeting and can't answer. I'm gonna text her "Good morning"s and "Good night"s each day. Maybe they'll keep her cheery^^.

Tonight it's 2AM in Utah and 6PM in Korea. Not really time for me to say good night to her, and I'm gonna have to wake at 7AM to send her good nights on time. So I'm gonna start going to bed earlier and waking earlier. Starting tomorrow night... Good mornings at 9AM in Korea, 5PM in Utah..

Hopefully this resolution means I'll be blogging on some other topics, too, from now on.

"God, where should I start?"