Probably won't be able to blog tonight. Just wasting time now before I go to the dentist.

Last night I talked to Chowon and she said she wanted to Skype tomorrow evening (usa time). I told her I wasn't so sure because my face would be super swollen. This morning, though I thought some more about it and the question came to me: can I overcome my pride to see her? Isn't that the root of the issue after all? Pride. We haven't seen each other in so long... a few moments seeing her will be well worth the embarrassment, and it isn't like my mom and dad won't be making fun of me the whole time my face is swollen anyway. They've started already.

I had a dream that Chowon's flight back to Korea was canceled due to another plane crashing nearby. When she came back through Security I could tell she was a bit scared so I ran over to give her a hug, but she had become very tall. I had to stand on a chair to hug her, but I did and after a moment she came back down to normal size./*haha seems like all my dreams about her have just been excuses to give her a hug*/

She's almost all I've been thinking about lately. I mean, of course I do all my daily stuff, and I've been studying the Bible better lately, but every time I have a moment my thoughts turn to her. I wonder... Its something many of us want, but it's hard to attain: that we would be that way about God. The thing is, though, even with people this infatuation won't last forever. Did I ever have it for God? Maybe with some self-examination I can reproduce the feeling.. I think it has to do with how there's a lot that I want to know about Chowon and about the way things will be. With God, there's lots I want to know too, but I've come to terms with the fact that he'll let me know when he feels like it and not a moment sooner. With Chowon, for example, I will know how our first meeting will play out as soon as we have it, and it looks like that will be in January. So until then I just have to be anxious. Is it normal to think about her that often?

"You don't know how many times I wanted to call you"