Finals are finished... Packing is basically finished...

Chowon says she won't be able to talk to me for a week due to finals which she has every day. She seemed pretty distracted by it when we talked. I wonder what thoughts are going through her head when she makes that look.... Maybe I will learn it, too.

I have a box of chocolates which my roommate has charged me with finishing. I don't think I can do it. I've eaten too much already and it's gonna make me break out.

....I don't want to leave this place right now. While tomorrow hasn't come, I have still seen Chowon recently... Going home means changing my schedule. I was only just getting into the full swing of my studies. I was only just recapturing this semester... Going home means the next stage in waiting to see Chowon.. I'm so nervous about it, and I don't want to wait any longer. Why do I have to change focus so often?

Next semester... I honestly don't see myself spending much time at the fraternity. What little free time I have, I have preferred to spend it as alone as possible these days. I'm ok spending time alone with my roommate and my girlfriend, but although I am close with many people I feel like talking to everyone else is work. I haven't decided where to draw the line with Damien yet. I like him, but in a pavlovian sense being around him makes me want to be alone.. and the way he interacts with Chowon makes me uncomfortable. Not uncomfortable enough to confront him yet, but close. I have sensed potential for severe cultural misunderstandings in some of his expressed plans for conversation with her -- and given that he doesn't know her at all, I don't think I like that he's planning conversations with her or that he feels the need to pop in every time I talk to her... hmmm... if he approaches the border between friendly and weird again I may have to ask him to be more "hands-off".

"Doesn't it sound sad?"