Warped Tour was awesome! Dillinger Escape Plan blew my head off. We left early because we were hungry and also Tyler got pissed at Stevie, but it was all ok because I got a special edition CD from DES signed and I got a signed poster to send to Dan :D

The camp was great, too. I'm exhausted. Today was tender, when we had to say goodbye to all the kids. I kept a journal while I was there, and the following are the entries as I wrote them (I'll probably tear up the paper copies. lol)

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Day 1 8/9/10
The two kids assigned to me are Neal and Benito. Benito came to camp with the rest of the kids, but Neal was delayed, and I think that was for the better. Benito has been tons of fun and likes to play pirates. I'm glad I had 1 on 1 time to really get to know him (in accordance with the camp "two deep" rules, of course). Benito is very compliant and easy going (but plays hard). I like him alot. Neal is an extremely reserved boy, but is also very polite and organized. I mean, like, he is almost alarmingly polite and calm and compliant. He doesn't lack free will, but has not acted on it so far except when we explicitly ask him to. He is also very focused and driven. He plays the piano with intermediate skill and I have heard stories about how he ran 20 (or 50?) laps around the cabin last year after a joke about how the rest of the boys had too much energy and how they should run it off. He plays piano without moving his eyes away from directly ahead, and without blinking. My curiosity (as well as my contentment) piqued today when I saw just how much medicine was given to him after lunch. He always says "yes" and "no". He's like a perfect kid. Idk. Anyway, I'm eager to see the rest of the week, so I'm going to sleep.
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Day 2 8/10/10
Had lots of fun today, and I felt like I really connected with Neal. He's opening up alittle more. However, I am having difficulty connecting with Benito, or maybe I'm just afraid. I feel a slight distance between us, but I know he still likes me a lot, and he's a lot of fun. Maybe I'm just being silly. I guess we'll see how it goes tomorrow.
I really enjoy hanging out with tony also. he seems very mature for his age, and my impression of his insightfulness is continuously yielding greater and greater values. I should REALLY stop hanging out in the badger room and spend more time asleep... Speaking of which......
A.T: Oh I got some really sweet letters from the kids this morning, especially Benito. Neal wrote one, I think, but I won't get it 'till tomorrow.
Also, Tony made me a necklace w/ my name on it today. It's really cool.
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Day 3 8/11/10
Benito and I connected much better today. He had an emotional moment when another kid bullied him while in line for seconds at lunch. The other kid got a talking-to and I scratched Benito's back and talked it over with him a little. He was still down when one of the camp grandmas came and gave him a hug and walked him back in with me. It was too bad. He had been saving me a seat in between him and Hyewon, and we lost the seats. After a conversation I had with the kids about girls and girlfriends, they picked up that I have a crush on her. :/
Neal was really great today, he played piano with his sister at the talent show. they kinda forgot the song on stage, but they "sounded great! I couldn't tell you made any mistake because I don't know how it's supposed to sound." and Neal was ecstatic. When I said he was an excellent piano player he smiled and said "I know."
Benito did an awesome routine on stage where he said he'd been practicing magic for thousands of years and that he had a very special trick. They played it up a lot and then pretended to pull off his index finger. Surprisingly, some of the kids at the camp had never seen that trick! All in all, today was a success :)
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Day 4 8/12/10
I can't really see what I'm writing tonight and I'm stuck using a pen because I lost my flashlight, but today was great. I feel like I connected more with Benito and Neal and they both had a great time. I also got to spend some time with Tony, which was cool. He's a great kid. I wish I could prolong my involvement in their lives, but alas... I can't. It's going to be hard to say goodbye tomorrow, and I can only pray that God used me in their lives somehow. I intend to keep the letters these kids sent me forever, and tomorrow I intend to choke back my tears and send the kids off with excessive amounts of praise and encouragement.
Last night I had a dream which I haven't had in a long time. I have had it (I think) twice before. Once around the beginning of my sophomore year in high school, and once around the beginning of my senior year high school. In the dream, Zane (my old youth counselor; he's dead as-of last year) is dead (I guess this was the first time it was actually true) and his spirit was telling me all the things good and bad about me. He was angry at me and I was asking him for a hug but he wouldn't give it to me. Finally, I said I would do something so he wouldn't be angry at me and I did it and it worked and he, reluctantly, hugged me. weird?
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That's it. God bless you if you read this far lol (well... and also if you didn't. haha)

"You are a Leno Ba Neno. Keep up the good work."