I went on that hike yesterday to doughnut falls :D it was awesome. It was about a 30-45 minute hike from the parking lot, and then light rock-climbing up the side of the a waterfall. At the top, there is a cave that we could go in where the water came through a hole in the ceiling. It was just gorgeous. I will be posting some low-Q pics on facebook soon. lol.
After that, we all went to Hyewon's friend's house and had some food. There were 8 people with us, but 6 of us stayed the night. We watched a movie, I learned that the drinking age in Korea is 20, but since they count age starting with 1, it's really 19. I knew that before, but Hyewon told me it was 21 in Korean years so I would have to wait until next year anyways. Interestingly, the average life-span in the RoK is about 1.4 years older than in the USA. It was an interesting party :)
That night, Hyewon and I stayed up alone to watch a Korean movie. I joked with her that it was terrible (because the plot was, in fact, lacking), but it was a fun movie and I enjoyed it a lot. She and a friend of hers slept on a mattress and I slept on the floor nearby. Hyewon tried to steal my pillow a couple times and I got in kindof an awkward hand-fight with her. Every now and then we would end up at a "stand-still" holding hands, and then we'd both half-laugh and pull away. After that, she slept with her hand hanging off the bed towards me, (in a way which seemed rather deliberate) and I really wanted to just grab it and hold it, but I was afraid because of the way we had been pulling away from each other earlier. I still don't know for sure what the outcome of that kind of risk-taking would have been... but she had had a drink and either way I would have felt like I was taking advantage of her somehow. (even though it had been an hour or two since then and it was definitely worn-off by then)... Hyewon and I joked that we have been hanging out for 4 days straight. Today I went to her church, and then she went home and I went home. She isn't with me immediately.
Lindsey texted me a couple times during the time I was with Hyewon. I felt bad because I kept forgetting to check my phone and there would be like an hour in between texts, and Lindsey was obviously alittle nervous about the way the conversation was going. She kept apologizing when I would talk too long to respond. In fact, her most recent text (something about how she thinks working at VBS will help her with "what she wants to do" in the future,) has left me without response, and it's been about 24 hours. I have no idea how to respond. I think I remember her saying she wants to go into child-development when she gets older, so I am not sure if I should ask what she wants to do. Also, I'm not sure if I should respond with something flirty or not, because previously we did nothing but flirt and that's all I know how to do with her, and that conversation wasn't funny. I let slip to Gabi that I wasn't sure if things with Lindsey could go anywhere if we didn't have a serious talk eventually, and Gabi might have said something to Lindsey, but I doubt it because Gabi isn't normally like that. Furthermore, I want to respond with something that will maintain a friendship without allowing that the relationship can go anywhere anymore because... idk.... my heart's just not in it anymore.... but I don't want to hurt Lindsey's feelings.
Mom plans to have the Highschool Bible-study girls over while Hyewon is staying with us. That might prove to be super awkward. Mom says she thinks it would be beneficial for me for Hyewon to see the caliber of girls who are interested in me (because Lindsey and Gabi are pretty great girls). I had a conversation with mom about keeping my relationship issues with me and not intervening with girls on my behalf ever unless absolutely necessary or unless I ask her to (at my own discretion). I've known she had a habit of that ever since early highschool, but I honestly didn't realize just how awkward it was until my senior year, when she talked to Lani's mom for me without telling me. That was a disaster, and, without getting into the circumstances exactly, I played it cool, but probably shouldn't have. That was kindof a wake-up call for me.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
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