Listening to Bright Eyes now.

Arm wrestled my Mongolian roommate today, and after about 30 seconds of neither of us moving, we called it a tie. I think that he and I are twins from other countries. He says it's because I have some Cherokee blood in me, and Native Americans used to be Mongolians.

"You would do the dance that was choreographed at the dawn of time, singing I told you son, the day would come, when you would die die die die."

I've been drinking a lot of 율무자 lately, but a few hours ago my friend told me that that stuff lowers your sperm count crazily. .... it just tastes so freaking good .... I'm gonna have to get some second opinions.
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Ok, so after about an hour of google searching and wikipedia reading, nowhere did I see anything about lowering sperm-count. I think this is another one of those cases where they were just making up stuff because I know absolutely nothing about Korean foods lol. It's not the first time. However, I did read that it helps clear complexions in people who have oily skin, (me)... and it's scientific name is "semen coicis" which is much too easy to make any jokes about.

........I'm gonna go make a glass of 율무자.

"Now I do as I please and I lie through my teeth. Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me. I should probably feel cheap, but I only feel free and a little bit empty."

I wonder if Lani has hidden my posts on facebook. Sometimes I get on there and see a post from her and check the chat-list to see if she's on. Even if she is, I don't talk. I just sit for a second and wonder what I would say if we did talk. I feel like a total weirdo for it, and it makes me think I never got over her. --no, shut up. I am totally over her... she just conveniently.. "exists" whenever I need something to be sad about. Each time I want to hide her posts, but I don't because if she ever un-friends me I want to realize it and find her and request her again, only until we have no more promises to keep.

"But I say to you, Do not take an oath at all, either by heaven, for it is the throne of God, or by the earth, for it is his footstool, or by Jerusalem, for it is the city of the great King. And do not take an oath by your head, for you cannot make one hair white or black."
Matthew 5:34-36
"It is better that you should not vow than that you should vow and not pay" Ecclesiastes 5:5

I've been praying off and on for wisdom still. I can ask all day, but how do I know when God has given it to me? I don't. If I say I am wise, then I am not at all, because wisdom is infinite, and I think we can only partially grasp it in our lifetime. Should I just keep praying for wisdom to no avail? Maybe this is just one of those things where you can't win, but you get props for trying anyway.

"Since then I've been so good at vanishing"
"Ignorance is like medicine"