Well, I need to go to bed "right now" but I will as soon as I finish this blog.


"Come hither, pretty fly, with the pearl and silver wing. Your robes are green and purple, there's a crest upon your head. Your eyes are like the diamond bright, but mine are dull as lead!"

been thinking about that lately. It makes me want to reexamine the appearance of a fly. When you focus on the good in something, can't you find that all of God's creation is beautiful? Of course, keep in mind, this is what said the spider to the fly.

I was supposed to go to the movies on Friday with a friend, and then on a date to the movies on Saturday night, and then to dinner with a friend on Sunday night. I made the plans when Hyewon said she wouldn't be here, and so I thought I shouldn't cancel with so many people when she said she was back. All three of my appointments cancelled because they were studying for midterms, and I didn't get to go to Seoul or see Hyewon.
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but this weekend wasn't a total blow-out. I got some much-needed homework finished, and I got to talk to Gana about my situation with Hyewon and 지혜. I know that probably wasn't prudent, but Gana is super-cool. I have a lot of respect for her. .... and honestly, I don't stand to lose much if she leaks the information. It's on the internet, after all. Gana doesn't know 지혜, but said she thinks that she might have a boyfriend. That was useful information, but then she told me to take that with a grain of salt because she doesn't have the facts for sure, so it wasn't useful information. Also, Gana said that just from hearing the thing with Hyewon, I probably should still give her the benefit of the doubt. It's much too late for me to remember her reasoning, (because I don't, and I don't want to reason it through in my head again), but I remember it was pretty sound. I think Gana's a wise girl. Therefore, the sooner I get to see Hyewon in person, the better. Most important in my relationships right now is that I talk things over with her.

Also... so I know that this blog is a lot drama, and I'm pretty much beating a dead horse every night.... but this is where I think things through, and it is not by any means a reflection of the proportionality in weight of each thing on my mind. I talk about girls here so often, because.... well, in all of history, what has proven to be more confusing and more confounding than woman? huh? nothing.

"Therefore rid yourself of all malice, deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and all kinds of slander."