Ok, I know I'm flip-flopping on this constantly, but girls again. Here's the thing. Plans have changed and now Hyewon won't be able to come to Korea until after November. So, depending on my schedule, I might not even get to see her. December is finals-month. I hinted heavily at her telling me what she was "going to tell me" and she asked a question which made me think that she could very possibly be leaning "no". The answer will probably come with her letter of acceptance or rejection from BYU. I just have to hope that BYU isn't one of those schools that doesn't send formal rejections (if she gets rejected. I'm confident in her, but there's always this chance.) Anyway, the point is, I'm still setting my deadline at the 22nd. I will be straightforward with her next time we Skype; saying something like "You don't have to say yes, but I need something concrete to hold on to if I am going to wait so long for you." I don't know if she will understand that, but it's worth a shot. I would have done it today when we talked, but she was so calm and kept her smile so well despite the stress and confusion which anyone in her position might naturally feel. I couldn't do it. I mean, I saw in her expression that she wasn't sure of things. Something in the back of my head imagines a reader saying "why the rush?".

Well, I have to be completely honest here. I had a really good time tonight with this one girl who will probably appear in my facebook pictures soon-ish. We've been hanging out a lot, and she is easily one of the prettiest girls I've ever seen. On top of that, she's powering through a double-major, and is a solid(afaik) Christian. We went to the beach today, and this Saturday we're going to the movies. No matter how hard I've tried (and this could be my flesh acting despite me, but) I can't seem to reason it into bad conscience to pursue this girl as long as I am single. If Hyewon refuses to tie me down, then I am untied. At least with Gabrielle, even though we never called it "boyfriend and girlfriend" (omg semantics) we agreed that we weren't dating other people.

Well, other than that. I'm feeling alright about midterms. I'm also feeling terrible about midterms. I'm listening to Ratatat right now. I think my favorite songs of theirs might be these:
Crips
Kennedy
Lex
Chery
My roommates are going to sleep. I should probably join them.

... it was really nice talking to Hyewon, though, as usual. I made her a mix-tape("tape" VERY loosely) and gave it to her today.

"ㅊㅋㅊㅋㅊㅋ"