So normally my mom is pretty ridiculous, but sometimes she says something that deserves attention.

I think it was this morning, I got a long email from my mom telling me the news which she has been working so hard at finding this entire time. Like, every contact I've had from mom has had some kind of BS in it about something Hyewon did or didn't do that made mom mad (and it's always something small, and something which, when I talk to mom about it, mom doesn't really care about and wouldn't be bothered by if it was anyone else.) In fact, on several occasions mom has apologized for so aggressively fault-finding with Hyewon, but she persists. Idk what I can take seriously from her anymore.

Anyway, mom says that Hyewon has been running around with guys in my absence. She even came home with flowers from some guy. That's not to say that I haven't gone on a date or two with a girl or two, so I've checked myself by now, but Idk what to think about it. I mean, I'm cool with her going on dates with some guys now, but comparing her track record with her current performance, I wonder if she will be a loyal girlfriend if she says "yes".

My knee jerk reaction was "If she's really a player, then nothing she says is reliable, and I should be more actively pursuing relationships with other girls." Then I decided that she deserves, at least, to be asked about it. I might have taken this more seriously if my mother wasn't crying wolf all the time. At any rate, with this news, now that I know she isn't waiting for me, I finally decided not to wait for her, and finally I won't be feeling guilty and trying to reason it into either good or bad conscience so it will stop or continue. I'll be going on dates with other girls and if things go well and I get a girlfriend, then Hyewon was too late. Actually, depending on how things go in the next week or so, if Hyewon comes back and says "yes" too soon, I might have to ask her to wait.

I just sent a frustrated response to that email to my mom.

On a lighter and somewhat ironic note. My date with 지혜 tonight was terrible. 지혜 is an awesome girl; extremely pretty, Christian, and definitely academically successful. However, she, like other Koreans I know, has a loose grasp on her limits. She didn't eat anything but a few apples today or yesterday, so she was really sick tonight. She was feeling dizzy, so we went to a pharmacy and picked up some something for her. Then we went to get some 새우측 (shrimp porridge... I might have spelled it wrong. it was delish') for dinner. The plan was, after that I'd get a haircut and then we'd see a movie, but she puked. I told her we aught to go back to the dorm if she was feeling bad, but she said no, so I got my haircut (which looks good, btw), and then she puked again so we went home. She said next time we'd see a movie. There weren't any good flicks in English tonight anyway lol.

"We're so serious."