Hiking tomorrow from 6:15AM to 8:00PM. Then, if I can, I will go to watch my friend play clarinet. However, I will probably be eating dinner with my friend, Chowan. I feel really bad about things with her lately. I'm afraid that she might think I'm not paying attention to her or that she's not ever on my mind because I have just happened to be not-paying-attention-to-anything whenever she shows up. Like, she will be walking towards me waving her hands, and it's not till she's right next to me saying "Zac! Zac!" that I notice lol.. She's not the only one, either. And I have forgotten her name on occasion, and there are other things, too. I think she's a really cool girl, though. It's probably for the best. My girl problems are complicated enough as it is. The last thing I need is another pretty girl on my mind.

I realized today that I might have put Hyewon in a bad situation. I think that if she ever valued our friendship as just a friendship, then I probably ruined it by asking her to be my girlfriend, and of course she would take forever thinking about it. I mean, if she says no then it will be difficult to stay friends, but even if she says yes, maybe it's not what she really wants. That's a nasty doubtful road to go down anyways.
She wore her bangs down today when we talked.
I caught myself hitting on her more shamelessly on Skype today, which surprised me. I guess that when you think about something more, it begins to determine your actions. I had decided for myself, though that I wasn't going to do anything in the way of making advances (inasmuch as advances can be made) until I got an answer from her. TBH, I'm very curious how things will go, but if the next two weeks don't pass by quickly, someone's liable to get their feelings hurt. The "single until taken" attitude, which, even though I didn't feed into it entirely, was entirely a bad idea. I think, maybe, I just wanted to see if I could do it, and opportunity is scarce in Utah and in LeTU. Anyway, the semester is half way over. How much worse can it get? (*praying hands*) No more, though: right now I'm focusing on Damage Control.

"cuteㅋㅋㅋㅋdont forget to bring water bottle for hiking~i am mom caring ur packingㅋㅋ"