Sitting in my room, door closed, headphones on, not available for conversation, not open to the world right now. I'm not feeling well tonight.

Idk if it's just because I've wondered often when it would come, but I am beginning to notice that feeling again -- the one where I don't want to be here anymore. It's early, but I've never left a place like this just to come back to it.

Idk.. maybe it's just what's been happening lately, solidifying in my mind that I don't belong. I'm always a little bit worried that I'm making a bad image, but people usually assure me that I'm not. Then again, I am pretty bad at taking hints. It could be that I'm at a disadvantage having been gone all last semester...So, well, I don't have a roommate next semester. Tyler, maybe my closest friend in the dorm besides Shane, says he doesn't want to room with me or anyone else here. I understand why; we have very different personalities and I might annoy him a lot. I could try to change his mind, but it would mean losing some dignity. I didn't really want to room with David ring, but I asked anyway. He doesn't. The way this will work is, if you can't find someone to room with, you won't live in the new dorm.
So I look around at the crowd of people in my dorm who don't have roommates: only people who are either leaving (Tyler) or don't mesh well with others (CHD, Joseph). Maybe I should just leave. I'd probably fit well with the trinities; I have lots of friends there... and I was invited to Thomas before.... no. I'll take whatever roommate I can get this semester so I have a place to stay next semester, and then I'll pledge. I have good friends in AO, and I've been invited in before.

Well, I have to Skype in like 10 minutes...