Ok, so thinking about what Shane said in comment to my last post...

I keep thinking that there's a chance I can still be friends with Lani. It's been like a year, so I'm definitely over the damage, but there's like a lingering weight in my chest when I think about her, and a nervous hesitation when I respond to her comments on Facebook, and a slight depression whenever I see pretty much anything having to do with her.

I can't decide how to approach a friendship with her. I can't think that she is the person I used to know, because she never was. I can't imagine that she is a new person who I am recently getting to know, because the only first thing I have to base our friendship on is that she's a liar.

Anyway, tonight, in the spirit of Proverbs 16:33, I've decided to put it all into a coin toss. Heads, I resolve to never bring up what she did and push down whatever lasting animosity I have in pursuit of a friendship. Tails, I defriend her on Facebook and Myspace, delete my old Xanga account, remove her phone number from my American phone and eliminate all record of conversations we've had via email or Facebook comments -- basically do my best to make it as if we'd never known each other. Either way, I resolve to never bring it up again (the resolution, of course, only involves me bringing it up, though. If someone else starts the conversation about it, I'll talk.)

......................

It was heads. I'll never bring it up again, and I'll approach the friendship as if she'd never lied to me. I've suppressed emotions before, and I'll do it again. To my readers, whoever, if I mess this up, please call me on it.

My pants have a new tear, and need a new patch.

I went to Jukdo Market today and ate silk worms, octopus jerky, and peanut-bread; all street food. The guy I was with owns a dog and said he wouldn't take me to eat dog. He's really interesting, and knows a lot about different countries. He'll make a great grandfather to some lucky grandkids someday. lol. I met with 지혜 again. It was me, her, and a mutual friend(guy). He's a Yankees fan, but not really a Red Sox fan.

And I paid my phone bill!^^

"We thought we were alone, but we had just started."