Today I thought of several things that I wanted to blog about, but I can't remember them. I'm blogging early tonight because I'm excited about criticizing the Chinese government. It's kinda hard for me to collect my thoughts with this music playing, but I don't want to stop it at the moment.... Anyway, I read this funny article in my Yahoo News Feed today:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20101205/ap_on_hi_te/as_china_wikileaks

About how China government officials are proud enough that they'd demand rash action taken against anyone who criticizes them. Too bad. Seems that the worlds most powerful countries are governed by proud, dishonest, and irrational people.

Lani initiated conversation with me on Facebook. It's a weird feeling talking to her, like a beaten dog being offered a treat from a strange rescuers hand. Conversation is simple, but weak and hesitant. Like I don't want to talk to her, and I don't know that we even have anything in common to talk about, but the conversation is happening, -no matter how small- and I'm a little bit afraid of losing contact with her again. I want to slowly work a friendship back into existence, and believe me, it will be very slow. I feel an almost tangible wall between us, especially on my end, and I wonder if I'll ever trust her again, but I really want to be friends...
Oh wow, that paragraph was surprisingly heavily influenced by the Simon and Garfunkle song that came on right when I started writing it. lol my music library is really bipolar. ㅋㅋㅋ Shuffle isn't working well. I'm just gonna listen to MGMT ^^ I'm still on an MGMT buzz since I downloaded that album. It's been MGMT, D4C, Renard, Ratatat, and some assorted singles.

My blog is long enough now that if I press the year to view every post, there's still an "Older Posts" button on the bottom.

Zac N. wants me to read some articles. I'm really bad at that kind of thing. I feel like I'm generating clutter in my mind with no immediate application. I know it'll be good reading for Christmas break, but I also know that there's a good chance I won't have time for it then.

I realized earlier that our motivations for changing ourselves and the world around us are different, mine and his. He's got a very similar life to mine, but he seems to be motivated by some kind of odd justice in the direction of blind rebellion. I, on the other hand, am motivated by semi-nihilism and a distaste for everything in the direction of blindly wanting to destroy order. His sounds much more noble than mine, yeah, but they are essentially the same thing, and there's a deeper realization in mind which allows that both of us work to improve the world.

See, there's a perfection in disorder. It's similar to anarchy, but without all the negative connotations: Government is only necessary because the world is not ideal. If the world was ideal, we would govern only ourselves, with a market operating transcendent of economics in a state of mutual gain with each party doing exactly the work they enjoy, and all toe-stepping would be accidental and resolved immediately. Am I wrong? However, the world isn't ideal. There are criminals, and there are power-hungry governments who lie to the whole world at once on a regular basis. The world will not be ideal until it is over. The best thing is to uphold your moral principles as if the world were ideal around only you, to do the work you enjoy, and to either destroy governments, or stay off the grid --not to give in and perpetuate their evil by becoming a part of them (even if it is a good government while you're alive, a good leader's children are often neglected). It's the same with corporations. The only exception is if the work which you enjoy requires that a governing body provide it for you, in which case you should work to defeat the evils within the corporation so that you can be completely in good conscience. Sometimes, in transitioning to perfection, there are periods of chaos which can be perceived as bad. (To teach a child, you sometimes punish him or her. To bring about God's perfect will, sin has been allowed to enter the world. When I die, it will be painful only for a moment.) This is the good chaos; the necessary "evil"; the justified means to a perfect end.

"Who's the poet? Who's the lucky star?"