Today I got one assignment done (as opposed to my planned 2, which means I'm going to have to do double on Monday, since Sunday is a "difficult-to-get-anything-done" day.

The girls were here this morning still. Mom let them spend the night, which moved me to sleeping in Dad's room.... ...

Hung out with Gabrielle alittle bit this evening. We went and got ice cream and I asked her about this guy she has mentioned recently in quizzes we have taken. (we send each other quizzes that we find online.). She said she still has a crush on me. I played it cool and we still enjoyed the rest of the evening. I have to admit... I can't foresee us being together again, but I told her that we never know... because we don't. God works in mysterious ways.

Hold on: text message.

That was NK.. She says she wants to continue Korean lessons when I get there, and I think that there's little I would like more. She was a good friend, and fun to hang out with... even though things seemed alittle awkward with her for some reason. I assume it's because I was a freshman and still awkward, and she was my first experience with a native Korean. I still can't read Koreans like I can Americans, but I'm slowly getting better.

However, there's a slight social problem with her proposal. I have been taking Korean lessons from Hyewon, and I might have a "thing" with Hyewon and etc etc. She says she might be coming to Korea around October, and if she wants to continue Korean lessons when she gets there, Idk what I will do. It could potentially hurt the feelings of either her or NK to be rejected on account of another teacher... lol. Sounds kinda funny said that way. Anyway, I think that this potentially precarious predicament mandates that I resolve the relationship situation between me and Hyewon. I have a good idea of how I will approach the subject, but I don't know if I want to find out that she isn't interested in me before she moves in or right before I leave.
... that's the wrong attitude. *confidence!*.
Well, the way I see it, if I try to have the talk with her before she moves in, then if she likes me I'm safe and just have to agree with her that we will not act like a couple while we are in the apartment, or, for that matter, on the apartment complex grounds. (I don think I wold want that while we live together.... is that weird?) If she doesn't like me, then I have to cover my butt by explaining to her that I am more than capable of being a gentleman and staying out of her way so that we can both endure the inevitably awkward situation to come (or, ideally but maybe wishful thinking: things aren't awkward and they just continue like they've been going.) However, a worst case scenario is that she decides not to move in. I find that unlikely, but if she does... the place where she lives is so dangerous. It would just kill me if she were to stay there much longer.
On the other hand.... If I have the discussion with her right before I leave, then.... well.... that's just tacky, and by then her plans will be more set-in-stone in her mind for coming to Korea to hang out with me if she can (because I will be about to leave), and maybe it will hurt more if she doesn't like me back, but if she does like me, well then we start off our relationship with goodbye and it's long distance which sucks. hmmm... so far, first option is better.
Third option: I don't tell her. I suck it up and "admit defeat" (if you will). The problem with this plan is that if she does like me.... well, I could be missing out on something beautiful. She is -such- a great girl.
A possible fourth option is that I could talk to her about it when we are both in Korea, but there are just too many variables, and I feel like the potential for a relationship is hanging on the next few weeks.

Ok.... Heh, this is why I keep a blog. So, examining the options, it seems that my best choice is to go through with telling her before hand. I hate to think that I would be "accepting the risk" of her leaving. In fact, if I end up talking to her about it, my only opportunity will be this Tuesday. She moves in on Friday. If I talk to her before then, (just being honest with myself here..) I will be forcing myself to ignore the worst-case scenario. I will try really really hard not to think about it. I wish I knew how relationships started in Korea. I wonder if the guy is expected to make the first move, like a classic gentleman.

Oh well. I'll write more on Tues. Pray for the situation and pray that God will give me wisdom.

"The Queen of Hearts and her dead, sleeping, f*ing Red King. Does it make any more sense now than it ever did?.... no."