This post is kindof for yesterday. Not much happened just church and homework and James Bond on TV. I found out that Hyewon is moving in two Fridays from now, which relieves some pressure on my part, but at the same time.. I wonder if it would be better to tell her soon or later. I guess the only thing I would be risking is her not moving in because of the awkward. Anyway, I still think I'll just try to have the conversation with her this Tuesday. I think there is no right way to ask, I'm just gonna wing it.

Right now my mom is doing stuff for Tricare. She is so strict about what goes on those forms. I mean, honestly.. what is Tricare gonna do if there is a smiley face in my address?

Still kindof going through little depressed moments when I think about Lani. They are less and less frequent, but each time I try to think about how I can make things better with us I cant. I feel like a small part of me is missing when we aren't talking all the time, but I guess that's just the way these things go. I wonder what the future holds... Several good friends of mine are moving to AL, and I might end up going there for a while when I finish college. I wonder if I will have the nerve to see Lani while I'm there, or if she will still be with that guy, and if she ever does break up with him... what will happen to us? I don't intend to ever take her back if she tries to fix things with me... but somehow I still think there would be a real beauty in the poetic justice of our meeting in person.

I wanted to fly out and meet a few people this summer before I went to Korea, and I really had plans to hit Alabama, then Pennsylvania, then some other places... Idk where, but I would get in touch with my friends and find out. Lani cutting things off kindof stopped all my plans in that respect. I guess I will just go to Korea.

"These heavy wings get lighter"