I figure that this week will be a tired one no matter what I do. However, from past experience, I think that with some patience I can become so tired that I become a zombie. As a zombie, I don't retain information for exceptionally long, but I take great notes, I survive as long as I have coffee, and I don't feel much of anything at all... including tiredness until it's time for bed.

That in mind, I've decided that I will lose sleep tonight in exchange for getting ahead on homework. Right now I'm sortof awake, and it's already 2:30. I have 1 or 2 more assignments to do before I'm where I want to be. Hopefully I can finish them.

Hopefully there are no quizzes next week.

Hopefully nobody makes plans for me this Saturday. Dangit I'm gonna sleep in this weekend! You know how much it messes up my week when I have to wake up on Saturday?? Yet for the past like 3 weeks, each sat someone else has something for me to do at 9am.

rofl, I really wish I would have had that sleep yesterday.

Community service might break my back this semester. Hopefully I don't have to stay another extra semester. If that happens I might just have to get a full time job and do school while I work. I was pretty tore-up about it a few hours ago.

Chowon, as always, gives me energy with her supportiveness, and encourages me to talk to God. God is so good to me. She is truly a blessing.

Nevertheless...I'm so frustrated with the world. If the world were perfect, we would have been simply picking up trash. If it were perfect, V wouldn't have popped his lid. If the world were even organized, my punishment would be tailored to be most conducive to my actually doing well in school despite it. The thought of staying an extra semester here bothers me immensely. After AO last semester and then this happening this semester, I just want to graduate fast and leave TX never to return. Last time I was here wasn't a particularly good experience either, what with Tony F. and his 4some pushing me around all through middle school. TX cocked it's head to shoot me down, and I know the score. I lose.

"I hope there's something better up there."