Ok, so today I closed my eyes and focused, trying to perform a "paradigm shift" as it were. I don't think I've completely got it yet, but I anticipate fruition within a relatively short time (in a cosmic sense lolol). What I'm thinking is... if I want to repair myself in this context, I should focus on my presuppositions, assumptions, and ultimately my worldview (as defined...) -- which is contained within my mind(?), which is part of my body. "I am not merely present in my body as a sailor is present in a ship..." Descartes says that we have a clear conception of our spiritual and physical substance, and the difference therein, whether or not we can put it to words simply -- answering the question "since thinking or thought is an attribute, to what substance does it belong?" (and defeating his answer by cryptically saying that it's obvious).

"I could not conceive of an imperfect triangle unless there were in me the idea of a perfect one, since the former is the negation of the latter. Thus, when I see a triangle, I have a conception of a perfect triangle, and it is by comparison with this that I subsequently realize that what I am seeing is imperfect..."

The idea that I'm gonna draw from that quote is that within me is an image of the way I should be, and the trick is articulating it to myself in such a way as to either defeat or supplement the rest of my worldview (or at least what of it that is accessible to me).

[These are all from the same "conversation" with Burman. Descartes is a hero of mine...]

So, having been given a direction by my judges, the task is mine to throw elements of thought and idea at it until they stick. Once I have discovered exactly what changes need to be made, I can erect a new pillar to hold up some ceiling of righteous action to keep the rain out and allow me more indoor-motion (within a house of established moral codes and ethics). Where outdoor motion runs the risk of getting me in trouble.

"This limitation is so great that it is only with the greatest difficulty that we can imagine even a heptagon or an octagon."