In 7 minutes I get to stay awake for 3 more hours. By virtue of its inconvenience, it is intended to bring about a good far greater than I presently understand.

I got a 2 hour nap, but I think I'm gonna have to push my sleep cycle around a full circle soon.

Chowon and I have been talking more seriously about the future. I don't know if I like it or not. We have only been together for about 7 months, but since we're long-distance, and international travel takes so much planning, she has told me several times that she wants us to have a plan for the future.

Everything changes so fast all the time. I have a hard time planning ahead that far... All I could figure for a plan was that after I graduated we might get married. A little bit of asking around yielded that it'll be hard for her to get a job without a GC and it'll be hard for her to get a GC without a job, but marriage can expedite both of those things. It's just that.... the "M" word, "marriage" scares me to death. I don't think I'm ok with talking about it right now, but it's almost like I don't have a choice.
..But I love her, I'm really really glad we're together, and I fully intend for us to stay together. That in mind, I guess it's not so bad to think of marriage as a possibility. The hard part is just thinking about marriage at all.

Ahhhh.... that and me being in trouble. There are moments when I don't think about it, but it's pretty much always on my mind.

I just wanna think about the next step, and not worry about the ones after. Is that possible in the modern world?

"As you stare into the vacuum of his eyes and ask him 'do you wanna make a deal?'"