Today I skipped Karate because I lost my backpack with my uniform in it last week and it has not yet been recovered. Hopefully I will find it before Thursday :(

Last night I talked to Chowon a little and she seemed very relaxed compared to normal. I love it when she tells me she loves me, but I have a feeling that my parents will disapprove of how quick we started saying that... but what is "love" anyway? I love pancakes, I love my brother, I love my mom, I love my roommate, I love Chowon. Aren't they all different? I love Chowon with a unique love which is probably more accurately described by "infatuation" at this point, but it is still love in a very real sense of the word. It will develop into something more and better as time goes on. I can either say, "what will we call the thing it becomes" (implying the negative side of saying the L word early) or I can say "our love is maturing" (implying that it will still be the same love, but in a different form). To not say I love her would be an exercise in restraint, but saying it is so immediately gratifying, and I exercise restraint all the time (a self defeating argument). I'll tell her I love her all I want, and mean it wholeheartedly.

That's probably going to be the presentation I give mom before Chowon gets to my house for Christmas, so she won't have to pull me aside and lecture me. But that's not to say it isn't honest. -- it is.

I ate at waffle house and met a very interesting man who claims to have at one point made 150k/yr scrapping appliances and selling them on Craigs list. Interesting, huh?

My roommate is trying to sleep now, and I should do the same.

Kinda gave up on circuits. I know how to do nodal analysis in a vague sense of the word "know", but I know that even the problems I can do easily will take an hour each, and will force me to do so much algebra by hand (cause we can't use a calculator) that I will get the wrong answer inevitably. If I use matrices, then it would save paper, but I really really hate matrices. Can't he just give us a quiz on matrices to prove we know how and then let us use our calculators? I'm convinced it would reduce my problem work time by at least 75%.

I'm thinking about telling Chowon about my blog..... She kinda hints at it as if she knows it exists but doesn't want to acknowledge it before I tell her, but I don't know how to present it and I don't want to know for sure whether or not she reads it.

I met a false prophet(ess) for the first time on Sunday and it made me realize how I need to be helping this church. God put me there for a reason, so readers pray for me to do what is right, and to act wisely. Right now, I think the only thing I can do is develop a relationship with the people there so that they will listen to me. It's too early now, but I know God will equip me when the time comes. It's difficult, and it may be harsh of me to pin the name "false prophet" on someone, but she fortune told to this one girl, and told her she would soon get a boyfriend or something --basically told her that she didn't have one. I don't know the exact words--, and when the girl said "I'm in a relationship" she backed up, shocked or with damaged pride, and said "Well, maybe he's not the right one. In fact, I think he's not and you'll probably break up with him soon." Well, the girl has already had two kids and no husband. She stayed for the whole service and left, obviously pretty flustered or angered by the experience. The point is the "prophetess" made a false assumption in God's name, which used to get people put to death. But then the pastor and his wife still took everything the prophetess said seriously, and even asked her to prophesy over me. The woman told me to stick by the head of the church and told the pastor that I was trustworthy. The "prophetess" was a guest speaker.

Ah well, I should go to bed.

"I feel like crap. No, I feel like the crap that crap produces." ~my roommate XP lol