I find myself thinking more than ever about Chowon, and even infatuation is a learning experience, because I've wondered in the past how much a person could actually think enamoredly about someone else before they ran out of things to wonder or had accepted the things they did not know or could not grasp. However, I don't think about anything specific and solvable, but take joy in imagining the curve of her smile or sound of her voice or her affection for God and for me or God's blessings for us.
It's like, when you're bored you might daydream, and it is desensitizing to know that you could be doing something better. Thereby I am bored with variations in normalcy, and find that just listening to her talk about her day is one of my greatest sources of pleasure.
And that's all I've got for tonight. I just wanted to get that out :) God has blessed me immensely this summer, and I'm praying for all my friends, that he will bless them and let me share my overflow with them as well.
"I threw a stone at the reflection of my image in the water and it altogether disappeared. I burst; it shattered me like a bullet through a bottle... And I'm expected to believe that any of this is real."
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