Today was nice. I Skyped Dan and Steph this morning and then Skyped Gavin. Both of them reminded me that it was a bad idea to invite Hyewon to Jeju Island... but I've already done it. However, should I end up going with her, I know I can do it without much issue from mom and dad anyway. I would just have to save some money.... At this point, I am leaning opposed to the idea.

See, despite our best intentions, we're gonna be on this romantic island retreat sharing a hotel room with just one bed (2+2=...). Also, I don't have an international drivers license, so Hyewon will be the only one driving. ... Idk if she has a Korean license either... maybe we won't drive. Anyway, I have two things to talk to Hyewon about now. First, I have to explain that I only had to register the win last night, not register the trip, and apologize for the confusion. Second, I have to talk to her about whether or not it's a good idea to go on the trip at all. I think talking to her about it is the only way out, but it might require near absolute openness from me on the subject, and it will be difficult if she really wants to go. It's possible I will have a hard time saying no to her. Maybe she will be sympathetic.

On another note, after talking to Dan and Steph, I am almost sure that mom is *at least* subconsciously, passively (is "passive aggressively" the right term here?) conspiring against my relationship with Hyewon. The way I've heard that she complained about "power struggles" at the airport to Dan was ridiculous so I explained to Dan and Steph the situation.. I'm not even going to get into it on here, because I know this blog is going to be long enough, but lets just say that the inanity of mom's trains of thought with regard to Hyewon in general is frustrating and almost staggering. ... ugh... anyway that's what's going on there. I'm not sure what to think of Dad. I appreciate him minding his own business, and offering advice to me where he sees fit (as usual), but I was also somewhat pierced by his readiness to tell me about the alleged "date" Hyewon went on... which turned out to be false information... At any rate, they aren't helping anything with this, and as far as I gather from what they've told me, whatever suspicions they have or have had are baseless, and in the past, have all been proven false. ... Ok.

So, from another angle, shouldn't I value the insight of the people who are older than me? Shouldn't I be a bit suspicious, looking at this from the outside saying "this relationship is pulling you and your parents apart"? Well.... I do value my parent's insight, but with Hyewon they keep taking shots in the dark and missing (perfect example: the "date") They are losing credibility in this situation (singularly). Furthermore, I have a hard time thinking that I am any more frustrated with them than I always am for one reason or another. Only, I guess now that they are so directly involved it is able to manifest more openly.

Skimming some of my older blogs, I think I change my mind ALOT. I would say that I want to work on not wavering so much: thinking through my ideas before I act on them... but I think that part of it is that I think out loud on my blog. I try to examine both sides thoroughly as each new evidence appears. I guess it's only natural I will have conflicting ideas from blog to blog....

On a light note. There is AC and a comfy couch upstairs in the chapel (did someone say "nap-time"?)

"In the past two years I have eaten over 500 chickens."