Had an interesting conversation about religion with a Chinese Confucious-ist today. He says he wants to come to Church, which is awesome. I didn't even invite him. I hope God really touches his heart. I'll be praying for him.

Talked with Hyewon yesterday, and when it was time to go she said she didn't want to have to stop the conversation, which was kinda sweet. It made me happy. I'm a little bit unnerved by how open I've been with her over the past few days. I wish I could have taken things slower in that respect, because experience seems to show that friendships are more stable and longer-lasting when you take time to get to know each other, and don't take one another on all at once. It's enough to live one's own life without being overwhelmed with someone else's life and burdens.

Actually, I've been finding out more and more about conversations mom has been having about me behind my back, and I almost unavoidably find myself in awkward situations having to explain the way things really are. Mom just doesn't know some of the things she talks about.... I really need to Skype mom again, maybe in private this time... to ask her kindly to stop trying to tell Hyewon about me... I mean, she's not saying anything bad, but she's saying things that maybe I don't want to tell Hyewon yet... Example: about my sleep condition... and some apparent inaccuracies about my ideals in dating and relationships; some of which Hyewon won't tell me, which is alittle unnerving as well. However, confronting my mom in private might not be the best plan. Most of the time when I do that, I end up stuck listening to her justify herself for an hour. Last time I confronted her, I went ahead and did it with Dan on Skype with us, which was great, because she started in on her rambling, and I saw the look on Dan's face: he knew just as well as I did that we needed to stop it.. Well, mom listens to Dan and respects his opinion much more than she does mine, so he, very gracefully, ended the subject.

Oh gosh, Dan told me a story the other day about how mom tried to tell his wife about him. She told Steph that Dan was immature and that she needed to go easy on him and watch out because he might break her heart or that mom didn't want Steph to break Dan's heart or something. Dan caught wind of it somehow and had to talk Steph out of being weird around him from then on. Idk all the details, but the story is a good enough example of mom not minding her own business, and someone else having to pay for her unnecessary stress.

......Oh well, Proverbs 23:22, right?

Oh gosh, pray for me about that. I feel terrible whenever I am angry with my mom, because someone told me once that however you treat your mother is how you will treat your spouse, and my mom has hinted multiple times in the past year or two that I am shaping up to be a bad husband. I REALLY don't understand what I'm doing wrong here.

*sigh* Enough! I'm done.

"You're a Christian, right? What do you need? What do you really need? All I have, all I want is love... Love: I have my family, my girlfriend, and my friends. Does God give that to you? Where is his embrace? Where is he when you are in pain?"