I didn't place a single card......

Just got sprayed. It feels a lot like roasting a marshmellow on a fire that's too hot, except you can't pull away and you have jalapeno slices under your eyelids. I showered, but it seems like it just put the spice down from the surface of my hair to my scalp, and spread the pain all over my arms and neck. ... but at least it's out of my eyes.

And with that, ART school is over.

The road trip was great! I really enjoyed spending all that time with Gavin, but I couldn't tell what he was thinking toward the end. o.0

Oh well. I have to work in about 3 1/2 hours. I get to carry the pepp tonight.

I asked Gana to help with sending Chowon something^^ I hope I can do it!

I met Lani for breakfast during the trip and it was super awkward. Her boyfriend is an atheist; I may or may not try to contact him about his beliefs. I'm interested, but I recognized many of his arguments. He knows the history but prefers the unimaginably improbable to the fantastic. The meeting affirmed for me that it would never have worked between Lani and I. She is a lamb clothed with feathers; I would not have been able to tell over the internet because I could not look at her face when she spoke until this trip. It makes me happy that she didn't adhere to me any longer, and based on my conversation with her new boyfriend, I trust that he will treat her fairly.

"So praises to the war machine, when the distance is growing thin to the helplessness of a tiny earth."

Just 7 more days 'till I leave. I want to summarize this summer with a few insightful words, but it's really hard. What happened these past few months....

I've almost finished CalcIII. I (ideally) will have finished it next week.

I got a car.

I got a girlfriend <3<3

I made some money

I watched Gwen develop from a little mumbler into a toddler who makes full sentences.

I got to see Lainey adjusting to life outside the womb

Spent great quality time with my brother. Also with his wife and her family. Got to know Steph better than I did.

Learned about Systema XD XD

Got to see Gavin

Found an opportunity to see Lani (최후의 약속예요)

Made some new friends

Got the easter egg on black-ops call of the dead X)

Found WWF Warzone online for my PSXe

and much much more! I'll post more as I think of it^^

Showin the neighbors some games on my computer. Soon homework, and then who knows? I hope to talk to 초원 soon^^

"Rue the day... on Zombies"

Really caught up by this song. (maybe just because I like the melody...)

Also learning to embed videos. :D

It's so surreal dealing with these kinds of things. I have to admit, no matter how much I'm trying to be cool about it, the situation makes me extremely uncomfortable. I don't know how to act, because my justification for thinking the way I have is crumbling, and I can't stay mad like I want to. Someday I'll look back at this situation and laugh at myself. I know it's kindof melodramatic to think this way, but it's weird how a misunderstanding can destroy a worldview like that...

Surrelity is the spice of life.

I had a calendar accident, but to the best of my memory, Chowon returns on the 27th, which began one hour ago in Korea. I am sending a text message banking on that, but I hope I don't make a fool of my self. The conversation I had with Lani makes me want to step up my pursuit of Chowon. I already talk to her a lot on Skype, on the phone, on Facebook, etc.. Maybe I'll send some flowers or something soon.

"Cold hands... cold lips.... no eyes to search"

Man... this weekend I've seen all of them... and they're all the same now... What a frightening thought.

So a while ago I talked to Lani, and now I'm planning to go to Alabama during my road trip so I can have that final conversation with her before I erase everything about her. I told her I'd be deleting all her contact info and stuff. I wonder what I'll say. She said she wanted to talk, and I wonder what she intends to talk about. She said "nothing awkward"... what could we possibly have to talk about that wouldn't be uncomfortable?

초won returns in 3 days^^ ..I need to shave sometime soon -- before Cho원 and I Skype again. I'm super scruffy right now.

Tomorrow I have buttloads and buttloads of homework, and Tuesday I have a quiz, but Wednesday is all conceptual.

It's kinda late so I'm gonna snig a snack and then go to bed.

"Its basically a love song."

I'm at a beech resort right now, taking some internet time to keep up-to-date with my studying and make sure no "important" things have been sent to me on Facebook.

So this is a great mashup of many songs I like:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lTx3G6h2xyA

Best part is: it's a live mashup, which just makes it twice as cool.

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HDJRII and his videos, though cheesy sometimes, generally present a very solid and uplifting Christianity. Here's a recent video where his Dad tells it like it is:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nX_xP0GpYrU

HDJR2 is a great guy. I've known him for some time now. God bless him.

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And this website confuses and infuriates me:

www.whiterabbitradio.net

It doesn't even deserve link status. It's too rediculous. The guy who made it seems to think whites are subject to some kind of undercover genocide and is too afraid to say it outright, but posts a bunch of "anti-pink-rabbit" cartoons and practically neo-nazi videos about keeping "third-world-people" out of white countries, full of phrases like "everybody says" and "everybody knows" about a "race problem". The sad thing is, I think that if I argued with him about it, I would lose, because he wastes too much time learning for the site -- and my only grounds for debate are fundamental truths and common sense (both of which he has apparently discarded). Like it says in Proverbs 26:5: don't argue with idiots. I came across this looking for a mashup called "follow the white rabbit". Still haven't found it. I don't know the artist. Oh well.

"We come undone"