It's so surreal dealing with these kinds of things. I have to admit, no matter how much I'm trying to be cool about it, the situation makes me extremely uncomfortable. I don't know how to act, because my justification for thinking the way I have is crumbling, and I can't stay mad like I want to. Someday I'll look back at this situation and laugh at myself. I know it's kindof melodramatic to think this way, but it's weird how a misunderstanding can destroy a worldview like that...

Surrelity is the spice of life.

I had a calendar accident, but to the best of my memory, Chowon returns on the 27th, which began one hour ago in Korea. I am sending a text message banking on that, but I hope I don't make a fool of my self. The conversation I had with Lani makes me want to step up my pursuit of Chowon. I already talk to her a lot on Skype, on the phone, on Facebook, etc.. Maybe I'll send some flowers or something soon.

"Cold hands... cold lips.... no eyes to search"