I'll be making cds for Dan tomorrow. Also homework. Trip to Outer Banks this Sat (mad exciting)
Finished Fallout:NV as a good guy; now playing the dark side.
Chowon's in Cambodia. She couldn't bring her phone or anything because the people she'll be with might take it or something -- not that I imagine her getting signal in that specific area anyway. Maybe my attitude is too saturated by convenience. Heck.. I don't have a clue what the place she'll be in is like.
Sometimes I think that if I had more to worry about I'd have less to worry about. This might make me sound kinda dumb.... I mean... if I were in a tougher spot, like if I were poor, I would be more worried about surviving, right? I wouldn't have time to waste on thoughts like "why the hell is that on the news?" (I mean, every story about someone being raped or murdered by their parent in America just makes me hate everything. Not only because it makes me feel like America is full of rapists and murderers, but also because this is on TV for our **entertainment**. As we grow, do we slowly desensitize ourselves until we resort to displaying and watching horrific incidents on TV to get our emotional highs? And somehow, people are convinced that attending post-mutilation press conferences will do more than help a few people get their willies a hundred miles away. The worst part? When I'm bored and there's nothing else on, I watch the news, too.) ....... but I digress. The point here was that if I were more focused on my basic needs I wouldn't be horrified and disgusted by humanity. But really.... I don't have the option of becoming self-reliant in a good way yet. It costs a lot of money to get off the grid, and I'm not a good enough hunter or farmer to make it work anyway. Becoming homeless is not an option. I realize it could happen to anyone, but I suppose that were I homeless I'd also be exposed to violence first-hand, and not be safe behind my TV.
"all my life
there you go
oh please stay
just this once
anyway"
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