So I won two tickets to Jeju Island on a pizza box today. Based on the reactions and help I got from my Korean friends, I think it's legitimate o.o
The whole trip will cost about $175, and will include a hotel, some food, and a free rental car. (that's $96 tax to the Korean government, and $50 for the puddle-jump to the island, plus some money for a taxi to the airport)
I can confirm the trip any time within the next two years, but Hyewon and I will only be here until December. I haven't confirmed the trip yet, but I know that if I save my money, I can afford it if she splits the bill with me. I mean, I called Hyewon about it (at 5:30am her time) and she said she would go with me, so that's awesome.
To God be the Glory. He gives and he takes away. I gotta be honest: I pray these blessings will continue.
Now, the problem I run into here is how to deal with my parents. I have the feeling that they will NOT approve of me going to Jeju Island with Hyewon. They don't have the same confidence that I do in my ability to abstain (which is a rule, so no ideas out there). Now, on one hand "Just don't tell your parents";; on the other hand "Your parents will be suspicious as to the whereabouts of that $175, and how will God continue to bless you if you aren't following his commandments by 'honor thy father and mother'ing?"
A rough estimate, I would say I have about 2 to 3 weeks to think about this before things get hazy for lack of time (transportation prices go up. etc.). so I'm not doing anything hasty. I was under the impression earlier that I had to do it all tonight, but I don't. So I'm going to have to get in touch with Hyewon tomorrow and clarify that.
Anyway. That's just great. and to top things off, FFXIV just emailed me about beta testing X) X) X). If my laptop can't handle the beta, I'm gonna get the code anyway and give it to Shane (along with the solemn responsibility that he must play the game and find problems with it so that it's perfect for me when I buy a legit copy).
Oh man.
...
Oh man.
"Dieing to our prejudices. Dieing to ourselves. living forever."
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
It's a little bit early in the evening for me to be posting, but I don't have much else going on tonight. In an hour and a half, there is a big mandatory pizza dinner I will be going to.
Today was great. I didn't do a whole lot, but it was good anyway.
I had plenty of time to myself in the room. Most of it was spent on the computer, but it was restful.
I had only one class, Chemistry, and it was cancelled. I went back to my room and checked Facebook. Lani was on. I almost wanted to talk to her, but I didn't, because I don't know what I would say. As soon as I saw her name I felt disdainful and sad. I might still need lots of time before I talk to her again. Fortunately for my mood, however, she signed off soon after and didn't try to start a conversation with me lol.
I did some more emails and then Hyewon came online. We Skyped, and it was really good to see her face in motion again. She told me she wanted to tell me something, but wanted to wait until she could say it in person. She seemed pretty happy about it, and when I asked if it was good or not she said "maybe" in a thoughtful way. I think things with us are good, and I feel especially content about the whole thing.
However, she let slip to me that my mother tried to tell her about my sleep condition. "Tried" is the key word here. Hyewon had written down a few words to look up later, but from what I could gather, it seems like she acknowledged what my mom was saying but didn't really get it... or my mom got frustrated and stopped explaining. Anyway, that made me a little bit mad at my parents. I should be the one to have told Hyewon about that, not my mom. I had to explain to her that it pretty much isn't an issue anymore. I am going to have to talk to my mom about that.
"To a place where they would feel like they are falling, falling quickly in it's way."
Today was great. I didn't do a whole lot, but it was good anyway.
I had plenty of time to myself in the room. Most of it was spent on the computer, but it was restful.
I had only one class, Chemistry, and it was cancelled. I went back to my room and checked Facebook. Lani was on. I almost wanted to talk to her, but I didn't, because I don't know what I would say. As soon as I saw her name I felt disdainful and sad. I might still need lots of time before I talk to her again. Fortunately for my mood, however, she signed off soon after and didn't try to start a conversation with me lol.
I did some more emails and then Hyewon came online. We Skyped, and it was really good to see her face in motion again. She told me she wanted to tell me something, but wanted to wait until she could say it in person. She seemed pretty happy about it, and when I asked if it was good or not she said "maybe" in a thoughtful way. I think things with us are good, and I feel especially content about the whole thing.
However, she let slip to me that my mother tried to tell her about my sleep condition. "Tried" is the key word here. Hyewon had written down a few words to look up later, but from what I could gather, it seems like she acknowledged what my mom was saying but didn't really get it... or my mom got frustrated and stopped explaining. Anyway, that made me a little bit mad at my parents. I should be the one to have told Hyewon about that, not my mom. I had to explain to her that it pretty much isn't an issue anymore. I am going to have to talk to my mom about that.
"To a place where they would feel like they are falling, falling quickly in it's way."
Monday, August 30, 2010
Things are going well. I'm super tired and haven't had much or any me-time since I've been here. I miss my family, Hyewon, Gavin, and AC.... and maybe some of the guys at Letu, too.
Tomorrow I only have one class, but it's early in the morning, so I'm just gonna take that and then go back to bed. God willing, I will get good and rested tomorrow and be able to face the groups with more energy later.
I think I'm in sortof a cycle with regard to Hyewon. I try not to think about her because I'm worried. If she says yes, then great. But if she says no, then I will be sad for a little while, but I will get over it. It's the wait that's killing me, and the more I worry about it, the more I set myself up for heartbreak. I wish she would just give me an answer, but I don't want to press it out of her because she needs to focus on her English and her plans for the future, and I can respect that.. but as soon as she gets to Korea and out of her rut, I plan on bringing it up again. I know that will be in October, but maybe it's good.... somehow.... If she doesn't give me an answer at that time, then I think I'll just consider things with her over and stop the whole thing; use my free weekends to sleep and study.
Oh well.....
"Something something something chingu-ibnida."
Tomorrow I only have one class, but it's early in the morning, so I'm just gonna take that and then go back to bed. God willing, I will get good and rested tomorrow and be able to face the groups with more energy later.
I think I'm in sortof a cycle with regard to Hyewon. I try not to think about her because I'm worried. If she says yes, then great. But if she says no, then I will be sad for a little while, but I will get over it. It's the wait that's killing me, and the more I worry about it, the more I set myself up for heartbreak. I wish she would just give me an answer, but I don't want to press it out of her because she needs to focus on her English and her plans for the future, and I can respect that.. but as soon as she gets to Korea and out of her rut, I plan on bringing it up again. I know that will be in October, but maybe it's good.... somehow.... If she doesn't give me an answer at that time, then I think I'll just consider things with her over and stop the whole thing; use my free weekends to sleep and study.
Oh well.....
"Something something something chingu-ibnida."
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Soo... Pizza Hut here gives unlimited beer to anyone who buys a pizza.
I'm rooming with two Koreans and a Mongolian, and I feel like I'm making a terrible impression on them.... I guess I don't have too good of a reason to think that.... but anyway I hold them in pretty high esteem from what I've seen of them.
I slept pretty much all day today. I woke up in time for church and then went back and took a nap right after. The Korean whose desk is next to mine has adware on his computer, and I would like nothing better than to fix it for him, but his computer is all in Korean, so there's little I can do. Also, Korean computers don't seem to have "open in new tab" as a right-click option for links.
I need to get in touch with Drew and talk about getting Statics class to be offered here. The prof is pushing to teach it to us harder than we are pushing for him to make it available.... well, it's available, but it conflicts with differential equations.
Tomorrow, class starts. I have Physics, then DiffQ, then Korean Class. I haven't been able to schedule a time to meet with NK yet, but I want to... I still miss Hyewon. ... what will become of that... God only knows.
"Thanks for saying so."
I'm rooming with two Koreans and a Mongolian, and I feel like I'm making a terrible impression on them.... I guess I don't have too good of a reason to think that.... but anyway I hold them in pretty high esteem from what I've seen of them.
I slept pretty much all day today. I woke up in time for church and then went back and took a nap right after. The Korean whose desk is next to mine has adware on his computer, and I would like nothing better than to fix it for him, but his computer is all in Korean, so there's little I can do. Also, Korean computers don't seem to have "open in new tab" as a right-click option for links.
I need to get in touch with Drew and talk about getting Statics class to be offered here. The prof is pushing to teach it to us harder than we are pushing for him to make it available.... well, it's available, but it conflicts with differential equations.
Tomorrow, class starts. I have Physics, then DiffQ, then Korean Class. I haven't been able to schedule a time to meet with NK yet, but I want to... I still miss Hyewon. ... what will become of that... God only knows.
"Thanks for saying so."
Friday, August 27, 2010
Didn't post last night because I was up late facebook chatting with Hyewon.
Made me wonder about things on campus. So, I have another issue to work out in my head on my blog.
So I was thinking about my previous decision to pursue the girls here, I think I should reconsider now that I know the girls alittle better. These seem like really nice girls here, and I'm kinda sick of complicated relationship networks. I would rather just stick with one girl... forever. Furthermore, what if I get into a relationship and then Hyewon all the sudden says "Yes". Then I will just have to drop everything. So, I'm just gonna not make advances with any girl until Hyewon gives me an answer, or until October, whichever comes first. Besides, I shouldn't be jumping into anything.
Now, the question is, how to be friends with a girl without any possibility of leading her on and without having any awkward conversations about how I have a girlfriend, but I really don't, but I still can't date because she might be my girlfriend.
As resolution to this problem, I told one of the girls who I wasn't particularly interested in (not that she isn't a good girl or anything, just I think she's a senior and much older than me, and afaict there's not much potential on either end) most of the story, and I'm counting on her relaying it to the other girls in the dorms. I avoided having to tell it twice, even though the topic came up very precisely in a conversation with another girl. If things go well, all the girls in my circle will know the story without me telling them and I'll be able to be friends with all of them without issue.
On top of that, the classes I want to take are lining up very well so that I will only have one class Friday morning... but I'm going to be busy all day Thursday... but this way, when Hyewon comes I will be able to go hang out with her in Seoul. I can leave Friday afternoon. The bus arrives Friday night. I can leave Sunday morning or Saturday evening and make it back with time to sleep before Monday. October is just such a long ways away... And, if things don't work out with Hyewon, I will have long weekends, and I will be able to explore Seoul whenever weekend I can.
Also, Lani tried to facebook chat me. I was afk, so I missed it, but I probably would have talked to her if she was still online. Then again, I might have only talked to her to tell her I don't think I want to talk to her unless she really wants to talk to me... because I still kinda respect her and I think if she needed to vent.... well, whatever.
"But I can't eggyo."
Made me wonder about things on campus. So, I have another issue to work out in my head on my blog.
So I was thinking about my previous decision to pursue the girls here, I think I should reconsider now that I know the girls alittle better. These seem like really nice girls here, and I'm kinda sick of complicated relationship networks. I would rather just stick with one girl... forever. Furthermore, what if I get into a relationship and then Hyewon all the sudden says "Yes". Then I will just have to drop everything. So, I'm just gonna not make advances with any girl until Hyewon gives me an answer, or until October, whichever comes first. Besides, I shouldn't be jumping into anything.
Now, the question is, how to be friends with a girl without any possibility of leading her on and without having any awkward conversations about how I have a girlfriend, but I really don't, but I still can't date because she might be my girlfriend.
As resolution to this problem, I told one of the girls who I wasn't particularly interested in (not that she isn't a good girl or anything, just I think she's a senior and much older than me, and afaict there's not much potential on either end) most of the story, and I'm counting on her relaying it to the other girls in the dorms. I avoided having to tell it twice, even though the topic came up very precisely in a conversation with another girl. If things go well, all the girls in my circle will know the story without me telling them and I'll be able to be friends with all of them without issue.
On top of that, the classes I want to take are lining up very well so that I will only have one class Friday morning... but I'm going to be busy all day Thursday... but this way, when Hyewon comes I will be able to go hang out with her in Seoul. I can leave Friday afternoon. The bus arrives Friday night. I can leave Sunday morning or Saturday evening and make it back with time to sleep before Monday. October is just such a long ways away... And, if things don't work out with Hyewon, I will have long weekends, and I will be able to explore Seoul whenever weekend I can.
Also, Lani tried to facebook chat me. I was afk, so I missed it, but I probably would have talked to her if she was still online. Then again, I might have only talked to her to tell her I don't think I want to talk to her unless she really wants to talk to me... because I still kinda respect her and I think if she needed to vent.... well, whatever.
"But I can't eggyo."
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Today we did some more seminars, ate some more food, etc. It was fun, though. I found the piano on campus, and I played that a little bit in my spare time. I should be meeting Somang soon, and resuming piano lessons. Maybe when I come back to LeTourneau, I will know more than just my 5 songs lol.
A certain pretty Mongolian girl approached me today. She and I have been exchanging glances the past few days, but I'm not entirely sure what to do about that. I mean, I don't think I have the energy to be working at anything with any girls right now. She gave me her contact information today and said to be in touch. I guess it's only polite.... but whatever, right? Idk if it's cool for me to be thinking about other girls while I'm waiting for a response from Hyewon anyway. What's the rule with that? I apparently was too willing to wait with Lani, and not willing enough to wait with Gabi. Any advances with the Mongolian girl, even if I have resolved that it's ok, seem like they would just be emotionally exhausting.
...
I'm just gonna go for it. [listening to Copeland, just got done listening to Escape the Fate.]
NK just got here. I wonder what she thinks. ... I should stop asking those kinds of questions. What is the correct thought-process in relationships? The last thing I want to be is a drama magnet.
Well, this song is almost over and I timed it so that the playlist would end right when I have to go to my next thing, so ttyl.
A certain pretty Mongolian girl approached me today. She and I have been exchanging glances the past few days, but I'm not entirely sure what to do about that. I mean, I don't think I have the energy to be working at anything with any girls right now. She gave me her contact information today and said to be in touch. I guess it's only polite.... but whatever, right? Idk if it's cool for me to be thinking about other girls while I'm waiting for a response from Hyewon anyway. What's the rule with that? I apparently was too willing to wait with Lani, and not willing enough to wait with Gabi. Any advances with the Mongolian girl, even if I have resolved that it's ok, seem like they would just be emotionally exhausting.
...
I'm just gonna go for it. [listening to Copeland, just got done listening to Escape the Fate.]
NK just got here. I wonder what she thinks. ... I should stop asking those kinds of questions. What is the correct thought-process in relationships? The last thing I want to be is a drama magnet.
Well, this song is almost over and I timed it so that the playlist would end right when I have to go to my next thing, so ttyl.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
So I've been at HGU since Monday, and it's pretty nice here. It seems to be getting cooler, but it's still hot and humid enough to be uncomfortable.
Had my first experience with the Korean's early, early morning prayer (which is going to be mandatory for all non-exchange students... so not me, but maybe I'll try to attend anyway.) It was nice. I think God's been kinda convicting me during this trip about not completely trusting him, so I'm working on that now. I know he's in control of the situation with Hyewon. I'm forcing myself not to think about her too much. Signs point to her being kindof a "player" (excuse the expression) anyway... and I don't like those kinds of games. (although God-knows I really want things to work out between us... I feel like I've written this before)
Listening to Postal Service now. A presentation slideshow played parts of "Such Great Heights" which really put me in the mood for that.
The community showers here make me uncomfortable, but I haven't had to shower at the same time as anyone else yet, so I am ok for now. I've been getting more comfortable with it each shower, maybe by the end of the week I won't be completely bothered by it anymore. Then again, I've heard that there won't be community showers in I-house, and we are moving there next week.
The food here has been getting progressively more weird, but I've made a point of eating kimchi with every meal to help me get used to it. The rice is a life-saver. A chopstick-load of rice dulls the taste of even the craziest flavors. Speaking of which, after the last meal I had, I think I've forgotten how to use a fork. It was the first meal since I've been here for which chopsticks were unavailable and I had a really awkward time eating it.
I wonder what things are going to be like when Hyewon gets here in October...There are lots of good looking girls here, but Idk... I haven't really felt inclined to pursue them. I guess there's just a lot going on. I can't multitask very well, and girls take a lot of energy.
Oh well... it's about time for bed.
"Thanks for the wink."
Had my first experience with the Korean's early, early morning prayer (which is going to be mandatory for all non-exchange students... so not me, but maybe I'll try to attend anyway.) It was nice. I think God's been kinda convicting me during this trip about not completely trusting him, so I'm working on that now. I know he's in control of the situation with Hyewon. I'm forcing myself not to think about her too much. Signs point to her being kindof a "player" (excuse the expression) anyway... and I don't like those kinds of games. (although God-knows I really want things to work out between us... I feel like I've written this before)
Listening to Postal Service now. A presentation slideshow played parts of "Such Great Heights" which really put me in the mood for that.
The community showers here make me uncomfortable, but I haven't had to shower at the same time as anyone else yet, so I am ok for now. I've been getting more comfortable with it each shower, maybe by the end of the week I won't be completely bothered by it anymore. Then again, I've heard that there won't be community showers in I-house, and we are moving there next week.
The food here has been getting progressively more weird, but I've made a point of eating kimchi with every meal to help me get used to it. The rice is a life-saver. A chopstick-load of rice dulls the taste of even the craziest flavors. Speaking of which, after the last meal I had, I think I've forgotten how to use a fork. It was the first meal since I've been here for which chopsticks were unavailable and I had a really awkward time eating it.
I wonder what things are going to be like when Hyewon gets here in October...There are lots of good looking girls here, but Idk... I haven't really felt inclined to pursue them. I guess there's just a lot going on. I can't multitask very well, and girls take a lot of energy.
Oh well... it's about time for bed.
"Thanks for the wink."
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