The results from that pageview counter differ significantly from what Google is telling me, and I was hoping to get an "all-time" count instead of a daily count, so I'll be experimenting with a few other counters in the near future.

The client project manager for this job was acting a little unusual today. I can typically smile at that person and they will smile back almost as if it's an involuntary reflex to being smiled at, but today they didn't smile back. I hope everything is ok.

I feel like my head is gonna explode. I don't know how some people can keep up these hours 7 days a week. I have expressly required that they let me take Sundays off, and I spend the whole day catching up on emails, filing expenses, organizing program files, and doing laundry.

Btw, I'm listening to this song:

I caught myself a couple of times today daydreaming about how I could explain what I'm working on to my family, but in a way that would strike a balance between creativity and accuracy. Specifically, I wanted to use as much metaphor as possible without misleading the hearer, and minimize or eliminate direct references to the actual things I'm explaining. Explaining this is making me lose my motivation to do it.

I've also been considering adding more rhymes to my poetry, and maybe even learning to freestyle rap. I've been trying it a little, here and there when I'm alone, and I'm very slow at coming up with the next statements. I have to learn to become more intentional about the sound and timing of my words rather than focusing on the meaning, so the difference between rap and normal conversation is aesthetic... but aesthetics can themselves be meaningful, like tone of voice or body language. I like to think that I'm committed to verbal language for its ability to reproduce clear and concise meaning in the mind of the audience, but I am in danger of being faineant if I disregard or underestimate other forms of communication.

I want to think of a way to rhyme without being capricious, because I don't want to add any meaningless element to a poem. I want not just the words themselves to have meaning as words,  but I want the sounds of the words to invoke a frame of reference conducive to receiving those words. However, since nonverbal communication relies much more on subjectivity in interpretation, the goal of that kind of art would have to be, in part, to invoke subjective responses (otherwise my art would achieve something other than my goal). So then if I am going to attempt to invoke a subjective response, I have to ask myself: is it possible to target a certain type or aspect of subjectivity? Are there objectively targetable aspects of subjective experience? If subjective responses can't be classified reliably, then is it possible to be intentional about aesthetics at all?

I also want to avoid utilizing stereotypes or cliche's in order to communicate my meaning. I want to be sure that I am appealing to human nature as opposed to common experience, which is not necessarily a clear distinction since all aspects of human nature are also common experience.

Now, as I've said before, I believe that there are objective standards of beauty, truth, and morality.... but when I try to qualify those standards, I realize how tired I am right now. I'm going to sleep.

"You're like a tether that keeps me grounded"