I hope any careful readers of mine will excuse me for the sophistry I employed in my previous post.  It wasn't to make a point -- it was more to make a joke (I took Baldwin's comments, as arranged in the song, as an invitation to conflate ideas). All respect to Milo and Mr Baldwin, and I pray that they come to Jesus if they haven't already.

Right now listening to Chon.

I have been lately posting the things I write on the day after I write them, because I find myself in the mood to write at the end of my workday when I'm sitting alone in the office and I've done my 8 hours, but I'm waiting for Chowon... Today she was sick so she stayed home from work, but I came to work late, so I have a few hours left before I can go home.

To fill in the time that I'm stuck at work, I've been teaching myself how to use SDL with C++ via Lazy Foo's excellent tutorials. Many thanks, Lazy Foo'.

I hope to use SDL to draw the backdrop for that AI project I've been thinking about. I have a textbook on AI design at home, and I'm debating whether I want to read it or not. I know that if I don't read it (or other works like it) then I'll be wasting a lot of time making mistakes, and my design will definitely be plagued with "bad practice" when I'm done.... but I don't want my ideas to be influenced by the architectural norms for this type of work. I am afraid that if I allow myself to see those methods, then my mind will default over to them rather than inventing new and potentially better solutions to these problems. As a result, I recognize that I may never finish the project, and that I will probably lose and regain interest several times over the course of this endeavor. Nonetheless, it is my project, and my hobby to do with as I like, for the benefit of all or none as God's plan would have it. I've already made some cute sprite sheets that I'm gonna use for this later.

I haven't touched my theonomy wiki in a very long time. I got overwhelmed and then I had no time, and now my motivation is driving me in other directions. None of the theonomy enthusiasts I spoke with were willing to help. After a while, it wasn't fun anymore. Maybe someday it will be fun again.

Chowon wants me to throw away the mess of electronic tools and components that I have sitting in a box in our apartment... I really want to buy some land with a house, and build a workshop on it for myself. That way I can make a space for all my hobby junk and keep it out of Chowon's sight and mind. In the meantime, I feel like I have to protect it from inevitable destruction and get that property and workshop as soon as possible.

I can't get a house in AZ, because Chowon and I don't want to accidentally end up staying here forever. Phoenix is literally in the middle of a wasteland. I don't like it here, and neither does Chowon. The only reason we've been here for this long is because Vertech is such a great company to work for. Vertech has been talking about sending me out to Tennessee, and I hope they get quick about making a decision on that.

Chowon has expressed to me also that she wants us to go to a different church. We've found one or two that we're thinking about switching to. It's too bad, I think, because I don't know how to talk to my previous church about it, but I have concluded that this is what's best. I'm worried that a certain prediction I made a long time ago will come true (it's because this is the way it always happens), that Chowon will finally become integrated into a church and begin to love a community and feel connected, and then we'll suddenly have to leave. It seems like God is taking us in that direction. I see this issue looming on the horizon, and I hope that God is gentle with us in that situation.

"I have something else to tell you."