I've all but finished the song tonight. In the end I wasn't able to include Beginner's Falafel or the Jenova Theme song (idk if Jenova Theme was in my list earlier, but it was in the works....). Also I included a couple extra quotes from Advent Children -- the same scene. They were "I've thought of a wonderful gift for you." and "I pity you. You just don't get it at all". There's just one transition I can't seem to get right, and I had to slow down Southern Cross to *nearly* unacceptable levels. Too slow and it wouldn't do that piano part justice at all. At this time, the song is about 152 seconds long.

The lawyer wants 850$ up front for expunction. Accusations are so expensive... I need to be sure that I will be able to get this money and still have enough... oh money.....

So matter is as of yet unproveable... right? Then what does that make us? Ambiguity hurtling through nothingness.

Oddly satisfying to think of it that way.

I was thinking earlier... I've covered in my blog: what's worth living for? what's worth dying for? what's the meaning of life? what's wrong with the church, and how can we justify going to church (can we look past the hate in some churches to find the good in Christianity)? what does it mean to love someone, and when is it ok to say so? can I know myself? and some other topics. What I haven't covered (or decided on), but would like to think through at some point is: What can be practically done to fix the church? What is worth working hard on? and Who is it ok to give everything to (besides... God...)?

I won't allow myself to spend the time on those tonight... maybe when I have more time and nothing to wake up for. I've been awfully tired the past few weeks, even though I've had good food and good rest for the most part.

Chowon comes back in a week. I'm excited, but I really want to do something special. I just can't think of anything.... ...Oh I have an idea :) I hope I will find the time for it and not screw it up. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ