This semester: AO has given me tons of stress; School has given me tons of stress; and my job has given me tons of stress.

Somehow 6 weeks of hazing is meant to cause a person to be more loyal. AO sent me a text the other day saying "you need to [chore] because [accusation]". Accusation true or false, pledging is over and I don't take orders from him anymore; so I'll paint the stinkin' tables when I feel like it.

I found out that I might be able to pull a good grade in Circuits if I can "go overboard" studying for the final. It's so hard to find motivation for that class because I feel like I've already failed it, and something about failure is the worst thing I've ever felt.

This semester my boss has called me in about once every other week to hint to me that he's thinking about firing me. He's accused me of everything from talking to myself to wearing unfashionable pants... Really. The handbook for that job is out of date and falling apart. The computer program for DSRs is out of date -- I could at least update the building checklist given 20 mins with the source code. Not to mention the ridiculous email convo with my boss earlier, where he told me 30 days out isn't enough to ask for leave; and that I had to change nonrefundable tickets -- a price about equal to what I make in a semester at UPD. Thursday they tried to pass me a 4AM shift on 12 hours notice. And today the police officer on duty -- who, I understand, complained to chief about me skateboarding in the 6x5 cubicle that is our building (an impossible feat) -- watched youtube videos for the last 4 hours of his shift while I was on duty. His DSRs since OCT 16 all just say "conducted daily activities". He has no right to complain about the way I do my job, much less if he can't think of anything legitimate to complain about.

The point is that they have bigger fish to fry.


I've made the decision that I am not tolerating any more stress handed to me by AO or UPD.

"Soundtrack to a Chance Meeting"