It's coming to the point where I feel like each day only brings me closer to leaving here. It's been such a good summer, and I wish I could do this always, but I am afraid I will never have another summer like this one. I wish I could express with words how happy it's made me that Dan and I and Jess were together, and also that Chowon said "yes" and that God has been with me.

Tomorrow I have a quiz and then on Monday and Tuesday I have exam 2 of 3. I'm pretty nervous about it.

I got my package from Chowon, and it was really touching to read her letter, which she wrote before I asked, and to realize that the meaning of those words was mutually agreed.

I have a feeling that tomorrow will be unique.

"Don't tell the future I asked about it."

Man, I can't seem to get my act together. Talking to Chowon still makes me lose my wit sometimes.

Got the new CD from Hillsong. It's probably the first overtly worshipful album I've ever listened to for leisure (not counting Jars of Clay, because it didn't sound like hymns). I kinda like the sound of some of the songs, but others tend to maintain the cheesiness of mainstream Christian music.

Sky is over there sleeping on my bed. She just got treated for fleas, and I'm thinking she's probably clean.. and besides, she looks too cute when she's asleep for me to push her off just yet.

There's already a "decent quality" camrip of the new Transformers movie on tpb with over 8000 seeders. Chowon wanted to watch a movie with me and that's what we decided on^^

Zac Nanfelt sent me a message saying "you wanna go to Korea for spring break?" several days ago and hasn't responded to me since.

I could stare at bubble chamber graphs for hours...

I'm really tired. I should go to bed.

I can't think of the right words for tonight.

So today was pretty chill. I mulched with Jon for about 4 hours, ate some no-lunch, and got WWF Warzone working for my PS1 emulator XD XD XD and I got some nifty file-type tools for my browser and then some company came over and we chillaxed and played Monopoly Cities X) which is like the best monopoly. Then codbo for an hour and then my tiny lesson for calciii, and now blog. Calc III was so wonderfully easy today that I feel like blogging it. We did constrained partial derivatives, which are basically normal derivatives but with stacked functions and tricky function names. Tomorrow will be much more difficult.

However, tomorrow is Day-1 of "Fixing Zac's Car"!!! Which is great! Because I'm totally psyched about getting this car out to Texas -- so I can take my 귀여미 out to dinner off campus when she gets there^^**** This morning I had to leave rather abruptly and didn't introduce her to John properly. I will have to get used to this again. The mistake won't be made again.

God's been blessing me lately. I want to give him the credit and bless him in return somehow, but I'm not sure where my best opportunity is. Pray that God gives me an opportunity and some courage and strength to do something nice for him or for someone around me which will in-turn be something nice for God.

"It's just a shimmy and a shake"

"Hey I found the safest place to keep all our tenderness;

keep all our bad ideas; keep all our hope.

It's here in the smallest bones, the feet and the inner-ear.

It's such an enormous thing to walk and to listen."

Today was really great! I feel like I'm breathing new, fresh air and the world is in a very good place for me. I have Gwen for an unlimited supply of hugs whenever I want them, and I have that car to go look at as soon as I give Doug Lamb a call (I intend to do that tomorrow), and I have finally brought romanticism to reality, (maintainable by my last drop of strength). There are stresses, yeah, but they are so overshadowed by the good in my life right now. I even had a white-chocolate raspberry latte today (yeah.... it sounds kinda gay... but it was really friggin good.) God's been blessing me a lot.

However, I haven't lost sight of that pendulum (oooeeeeoooo~~~~), and I wonder if it is a trend which can be broken... or does everything have to have a rhythm? I truly believe that sadness foreshadows growth and happiness (in a general sense, not necessarily an individual sense; as cold as that may seem if you think too hard about it), but can I believe that without believing the opposite? If I choose to stop believing something will I lose sight of it and forget it's existence or not notice it again?

Preposterous.

"A world that was disorderly and littered and loud and smelly and small..."

Got the answer. It was what I wanted, but not necessarily the way I wanted it. It will be an exercise in one of the most important aspects of life and subject matter. I feel like I should have responded differently, but my response wasn't negative, just worth improving. Things will turn out great, I'm sure^^*

"So helpless, so help you."

Right now waiting for a response. I know it sounds cheesy, but this is one of those moments that has potential to change the next month, year, 2 years, or the rest of my life. It's stretches me to think of it that way. I had to get it today instead of yesterday, and it hasn't left my mind for a second of the last 20 hours. I got an hour nap earlier, and I think that it, with this music, will hold me over indefinitely until the response arrives.

Other than that, today went well. ... oh crap, I need to call my parents and tell them not to buy my ticket.. just a sec. ... now i've gotta use the bathroom. brb.... ok, i'm back. Didn't miss anything. ... music back on, emails checked, it's been about an hour, and it's almost the normal time. I think I'll pass the time by copying another chapter. I'll get back to you on it. when it happens.

...............

Oh well. I have to wait another 24 hours-ish.

"Your suspicion was justified, but not merited."