stayed up too late the past couple of nights. Tonight will be different. Homework hasn't been good in Dynamics. I need a book, but I need school money for it and it's complicated... :/ anyway, working things out. Thinking about someone, not sure if I'll ask the question or take any action at all. What do I have to lose? Well, that's exactly the question I can't come up with an answer for. Too much gossip, social games, essays, differential equations. Ah well... whatever.... Night^^

Did lots of homework today. It's 3:00AM, so I should get to bed ASAP, but I thought I'd punch in a short one tonight. I saw some cool youtube videos today from a few friends. I don't want to go find all of them again and link them here, but let it suffice to say, you should wish you knew what I was talking about so you could watch them.

Tyler has really been building me up lately. He is really good at saying nice thing to people. I'm glad he and Shane are such good friends to me.

I haven't been practicing piano much lately because every time I go to it I start to miss my friends in Korea. There was so much music there, and they were such good friends. I almost cry at the end of each song. But I miss piano, too, so I think I'm gonna force myself to go back to it. There is a song with words that I want to learn to sing and play, and there is another song that's about my skill level that my piano teacher recommended for me, and I also have the sheet music to Rhapsody in Blue that I haven't learned past the first page of. It's such a hard piece, and at 30 pages, I have a hard time finding the patience to even work on it.

Tyler, Shane, and I have been doing Bible studies every night. Sometimes Shane isn't there, and sometimes Tyler isn't there, but there's always one of them with me if not both, and I think it's a really good thing for all three of us. So, without further time spending, I'm gonna go do that. Goodnight^^

"If I ask the same questions -- if I ask the same questions -- and if I ask the same questions -- well, maybe I repeat myself from time to time -- but if I ask the same questions -- it's because everyone who answers me is a liar!"

I haven't been blogging much lately, and I kindof miss it. It's weird, I think, because blogging has become almost a part of me. I have done it for so long, and when I'm not doing it, I feel like a person who just finally successfully quit smoking. It's cool for a while, but as soon as I get stressed I start again, because this is where I vent. I guess that wasn't a very good analogy, because this is nowhere near as destructive as smoking. In fact, IMO blogging is constructive....

Anyway, though, this week has been some fun. I'm enjoying getting to know all the freshmen in my dorm, and I don't dislike them as much as I thought I would. There's some elementary school drama going on with this one guy who pretended to ask a girl out and she said yes and he doesn't believe her and he isn't sure if he has a girlfriend or not now. Tyler is still getting over his breakup with Dana, but he's taking it really well. I think it's too bad they broke up, but I'm sure it's for the best. Someone told me that Dana isn't taking it as well, and that she's been a little sick lately or something, but she seems kindof happy. Idk. I'm sure she will be fine. She's a strong girl. And then Mr. Sumral is afraid that Tyler is having serious issues, but I don't think it's so bad. Nathan's probably just making it worse.

There have been lots of girls in the dorm lately. Everyone has a crush on someone... I feel like my crush is always out of reach. I don't think I want a girlfriend anymore until I settle down... if I ever settle down... Like, all my relationships become long distance, and either she cheats on me or breaks up with me or whatever. I guess someone will tie me down eventually. Maybe I'm never to be with someone permanently. One of my favorite Christian bands, MeWithoutYou, said "I'm still technically a virgin after 27 years. What's maybe 50 more?" Seems kindof grim to me, but it makes a good point... --Not to say that the only outcome of permanence in a relationship is sex, but the idea is he's not married and sex seems like a great thing for married couples to do. ... ..... so Ian has a crush on whatserface and kindof took her on what might have been a date but now he isn't sure how to make a move. We make fun of him saying he's scared to tell her how he feels or ask her out, and it's probably true. He'll figure something out. Maybe I shouldn't blog about that, but I don't care right now. I'm.. really tired...

맥주를 보고싶어
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Tyler: "There's Shane, you can't see him because he's too dark."
Shane: "I'm adorable!"

I figure I should blog more. A few things have been happening lately. Not a lot that I want to write about. Not that I don't think it would make interesting posts, but it's sensitive material.

Today we locked a few guys in the dorm in the attic. That was lots of fun! :D and we have previewers. I guess it's a classic case of forgetting that I sucked too at one point, but I really don't like most (or all) of the highschoolers I know. I'm nice to them and all, but the previewers every semester only serve to remind me that there was a time when I tried so hard at social interaction and failed consistently by merit of my exaggerated effort alone.... some of them aren't so bad, though. Idk. They just put me in a bad mood. Maybe it'd be better if we got paid for putting up with the school's previewers every semester.

I remember when I was a previewer. I remember having a lot of fun, but I don't remember details. The only details I remember are that I got a room to myself, I made a mattress fort, and I had an episode that night. Honestly, the episode was part of the reason I chose this school over Texas Tech. I don't remember my reasoning, but I had prayed about it a lot, and spiritual warfare is usually a sign that whatever is going on is something that either God or the Devil is strongly opposed to.

Speaking of those, I wonder what the rule is, because I do have those weird freakouts, but they are very very infrequent, like once every other year. I wonder how infrequent they'd have to be to keep me from being drafted.

It's 3:00AM. We've been reading The Bible aloud every night for the past week and a half; just me, my roommate, and whoever is around when we're going to bed. Time to do that again. Tonight is the first chapter of Obadiah.

I don't know if I'll be blogging every night or not. It's the plan, but the Bible reading has been good stress relief, and I have access to pianos now... but playing piano makes me really miss my piano teacher and my Korean teacher and 지혜 and Chowon and Roger...... Oh well.....

Goodnight!^^

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So on New Years Eve I met this girl, and yesterday we went to a movie, but I'm hesitant to think anything about it because I'm out of here in just a few days, and I'm still not feeling the long distance relationship thing right now. And on top of that, I'm still unsure about how to think about 지혜... She hasn't really been keeping in touch. 나경 (I'm probably not spelling that right....) has kept in touch the best, and that's great^^ I hope we are able to be friends for ... forever. But who knows? It's funny to me that she was in more of a position to help me in America, and I was in a position to help her in Korea (instead of the other way around). My plan is that as soon as I get to Texas, I'm gonna start sending 지혜 more messages on Facebook, and if she doesn't respond, I'm just gonna tell her that I will send them once a week until she does respond. I don't know things from her perspective, but I thought we did too much together to just stop being friends when I leave.

I am suffering from withdraws due to lack of musical variety. I have about 1.7Gb of music on my computer (what is that... 60 hours?), and believe me, I'm playing it. Luckily, this morning I remembered Pandora, so I intend to have that playing today. It didn't work in Korea.

The move is encroaching, and so is school. A 1.5TB ehd is eta Jan 5th at my sister's house. I'll be arriving there the afternoon of the 7th, and I plan to take that to school with me and transfer everything to it post-installation of some kind of Ubuntu on my desktop. My understanding is that the bootloader is on the Vista partition, so if I delete Vista outright, then I won't be able to boot 7. The Vista partition is home to most of my spare space, and a few programs have been installed on it for use on 7. Therefore, in order to make things right, I'm gonna have to isolate all the important files for those installations, copy the files to my new ehd, overwrite Vista with Linux (and hope that the GRUB bootloader will cover 7) and leave enough space to make a new drive with the same drive letter as the old vista drive to replace all my crap. Then, if possible, I'l concatenate a bunch of the spare space on whichever partition to the 7 partition. Then, if that works, then I'll put my old XP hard drive into the chassis and get my old FDG game library off of it, (and maybe see if Dan Allred wants copies).

"I hope I'm not being too forward, but...."

Yesterday in the car I was struck with some inspiration. I remembered as much as I could and wrote the lyrics down this morning, but basically I've got an idea for a song which could be really cool (of course, it's kindof a dream-band thing.) The beat would be written (or at least perfected) by Renard and Ratatat. It'd be sung by Jason Derulo and Rhianna.

As a realist (of sorts), I normally wouldn't bother with this kind of thing, but during that visit with Jared, he was in contact with a few choice rock-stars, including Amy Lee of Evanescence. I realize that those are under a different record label from the bands mentioned earlier, but I was thinking that if I really wanted to I could use my connection with Jared, and the fact that Renard actually responds to his fans, to make a collab happen. Anyway, just wishful thinking. That's about all that's been going on here lately besides meeting fam haha^^

"You'll get 50% or more!"