Haven't blogged in a while.

Right now I kinda miss having a blog to read...

Here's the update:

Summer internship went great. Got a job offer -- odds are I'm gonna take it.
Me and Chowon are about as serious as we can be. I've got my ticket to see her this winter.
School is going alright. As always, I really need prayer for my focus and time management skills.

TBH, the reason I'm blogging today is because I'm feeling really emotionally off balance. There are a few contributing factors for this.
1. I didn't sleep well last night
2. I watched like 8 episodes of SAO today, finishing the series. That was an emotionally draining show. I'm kinda glad it's over.
3. For some reason, I was compelled to check on my old Xanga today.

Xanga has been rebuilt, so the old blogs are only available as downloadable .xml files. Reading it was interesting at first. Skimming the posts immediately revealed some elaborate dreams I experienced 6+ years ago and had since forgotten. As I read on, though, I began to find pieces of a former me that I really didn't want to remember. I know it's kinda stupid, because it was highschool -- but those years represent some of the highest quality growth of our prefrontal cortex, making the time uniquely defining and very valuable for us to know ourselves and how we came to be the persons who we are. Some of those relationships lingered on after I went to the university. Some of my past friends represent memories that still have power to pull me into mild despondency. Reading the Xanga blog deteriorated into an unpleasant and isolating experience. I'm tempted to keep the xml file... just in case I want those memories back in the distant future... but I don't think it has the capacity to affect anyone positively anymore.

I'm going to keep it for a few days. If I forget about it or come up with a good reason not to delete it, then it will not be deleted. Otherwise, I'll erase it from history for good.

"Hope and understanding for the family."