It's been a long time since my last post. Been really busy lately. Completely enamored, fulfilled by God's love, and watching the pendulum swing back and forth more quickly lately -- and more slowly.

Pond runs aren't as cold if you keep smiling.

I am too tired to elaborate much about what has been happening. Chowon is the most interesting thing about me lately, or at least the first thing that always comes to mind when people ask me about myself. I suppose that isn't a good thing, because she is still external, and God should be my #1 focus. Then again, he is my main focus; in that I believe he has Chowon and I together for a purpose (be it what it is) and thinking of her almost invariably causes me to think about God.

Chowon asked me to get specific about the future the other day. It was a little scary for me, because I'm kindof afraid to say the 'M' word (marriage), but I got it out in a flurry of quick ramblings when she asked. lol. She says she feels safe relying on me to keep the distant future in mind. I think that's good because she should focus on the present, and I'm happy to have that burden off her. I feel inadequate to be relied upon, but I think that this could lead to a good order of things. If I rely completely on God, and she relies on God also, then we are safe relying on each other inasmuch as we are relying on God by proxy. Maybe I'll bring that up in our next conversation just to make sure we're on the same page.

I wish I were writing every night like I used to. I guess it will just have to wait.

God blessed me today.

"Always choose option B."