Today felt like the difference between meaning and purpose. ... in a really indirect way... It was just the vibe is all. Meaning is what grounds you. It's the unmovable truth that lets you know you're on the right or wrong road. Purpose is the road itself.

You might say the meaning of life is written for us in the Bible. The purpose of life is to walk with God and worship him along with humanity as a whole... but humanity is broken, and we have to do our part to fix it as well as we can, despite the futility of our efforts.

I slept during a good portion of the airshow, but I'd like to think I saw the cool parts (the flame thrower demo, the spitfire, some other planes throwing smoke and doing flips, the "reenactment", and the flea market.) The reenactment was kindof hilarious. They had one Japanese Zero on site, so instead of having a mock dog fight or something, (which I'm sure would be outrageously dangerous,) they had the planes do circles around the crowd, and every time the Zero flew over they shot it with their fake MGs. Well, a few of the MGs were real, but they weren't the firing kind anymore.

A lot of today I was wondering if I aught to text Chowon or if I should wait a day or two. I wonder when it's too much, and I don't want to get ahead of myself when we've got like a year before we see each other again. Then the one time I had her available and texting at the same time as me, Bud pulls out CoD Black Ops and I completely lost focus and didn't text back. Waiting for the response now to my 2-hour late text.

"Never forget the sun. It's only a dream tonight. Let me take it carefully...for you"