Last night I stayed up all night and today I woke up at 7:30 PM. I'm not super tired, but I know if I don't go to sleep now I'll be ruined on Monday. :/

When I woke up I had some pizza and trail mix, so that's all I had to eat today, but I'm not all that hungry. Right now the only thing really worrying me is whether or not I'll make it to church tomorrow (I'm not really feeling it) but we'll see. I do have some homework to do. Maybe I'll just wake up and call the pastor and his wife. They're good people. I really like them, and I like going to church there.

Talked to Chowon again today^^ My affection seems to only grow as time goes on. I'm looking forward to this winter. I wonder what God has in store for us.

I really need to remember to return this tupperware container to my pastor.....

She sent me some music of hers to listen to. It's pretty good^^ I heard one of the songs often when I was in Korea. I think that if I picked the right songs and sent them to her, she'd be really into dubstep. I'm gonna look for some good ones.

"That's why"

Today was busy busy busy. I got about 5 hours of sleep last night (1 hour at a time, with about 3 hour breaks in between), and I haven't done circuits. I wrote a whole research article about improving commercial touchless soap dispensers and then realized I'd done it wrong. I kinda half-assed the redo, but I'm thinking it'll be alright....

I talked to Chowon this morning and at first it was kinda serious, but then it lightened up^^* I'm really hopeful for this winter.

Tonight I got in trouble at AO for shaking hands the wrong way or something. I'm thinking that I can make any part of it fun if I can just have a good attitude about it.

Dear Lord, help me with all the things on my plate, that I won't procrastinate but that I will do all my work and that I'll do it well.

I'm getting used to the temp that my roommate likes for this room. He keeps things pretty cold.

"Tell me in Korean."

Chowon demands so much trust from me. It scares me sometimes. Dear God, bless me with wisdom and insight.

I had an AO meeting tonight, and I left early because I wanted to Skype Chowon (I told them I wanted to get some sleep before work at 4:00AM. It wasn't a lie. I'm going to sleep after this.). I wonder sometimes if I should stop refusing appointments and leaving meetings early for her... but I don't want to be late to our appointments, because those moments are precious to me.

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I'm way behind in bible copying. Life has been so busy for me lately, and I try to spend my free time mindlessly...

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I know what I'll do.



So my roommate and I are sharing one internet jack. My internet jack has gone out twice, and IT at our school has fixed it once, but now will not do it so readily. They have encountered numerous problems over the past two weeks. I wonder what their deal is.

At present, my network utilization is at 0% of 100mbps.. but typing here seems to occasionally bring it up to as much as 0.08% -- which is about 80kbps, right? I guess that's about right, assuming the text entry area is dynamically expanding and also saving drafts on intervals.

Well, I should really get to bed.

"But I'm not young enough to know everything."

It's 1:30 and I have to wake at 7:30, which means I get 6 hours of sleep^^

So I gave Chowon a link to the blog. I still kinda feel weird about it. I very intentionally don't know who knows about this (or I really try to ignore it when I do know).

Oh, she just texted me....

aww she's so sweet.



I just got to talk to Wouter for the first time in a long time. I know that everyone in our group of international students really grew to love that place. He seems to be doing well. I really hope the best for him.

My roommate is asleep, and I have to go to bed, too... my sleep cycles are insane insane insane right now. I really need to go to bed. I might skip church tomorrow, but I need to return this tupperware. I think I'll just stop by and say hi and sorry I can't stick around, and return the tupperware, and then come back and get ready for work. I work starting at noon tomorrow.

"A little leaven leavens the whole loaf."

Today I skipped Karate because I lost my backpack with my uniform in it last week and it has not yet been recovered. Hopefully I will find it before Thursday :(

Last night I talked to Chowon a little and she seemed very relaxed compared to normal. I love it when she tells me she loves me, but I have a feeling that my parents will disapprove of how quick we started saying that... but what is "love" anyway? I love pancakes, I love my brother, I love my mom, I love my roommate, I love Chowon. Aren't they all different? I love Chowon with a unique love which is probably more accurately described by "infatuation" at this point, but it is still love in a very real sense of the word. It will develop into something more and better as time goes on. I can either say, "what will we call the thing it becomes" (implying the negative side of saying the L word early) or I can say "our love is maturing" (implying that it will still be the same love, but in a different form). To not say I love her would be an exercise in restraint, but saying it is so immediately gratifying, and I exercise restraint all the time (a self defeating argument). I'll tell her I love her all I want, and mean it wholeheartedly.

That's probably going to be the presentation I give mom before Chowon gets to my house for Christmas, so she won't have to pull me aside and lecture me. But that's not to say it isn't honest. -- it is.

I ate at waffle house and met a very interesting man who claims to have at one point made 150k/yr scrapping appliances and selling them on Craigs list. Interesting, huh?

My roommate is trying to sleep now, and I should do the same.

Kinda gave up on circuits. I know how to do nodal analysis in a vague sense of the word "know", but I know that even the problems I can do easily will take an hour each, and will force me to do so much algebra by hand (cause we can't use a calculator) that I will get the wrong answer inevitably. If I use matrices, then it would save paper, but I really really hate matrices. Can't he just give us a quiz on matrices to prove we know how and then let us use our calculators? I'm convinced it would reduce my problem work time by at least 75%.

I'm thinking about telling Chowon about my blog..... She kinda hints at it as if she knows it exists but doesn't want to acknowledge it before I tell her, but I don't know how to present it and I don't want to know for sure whether or not she reads it.

I met a false prophet(ess) for the first time on Sunday and it made me realize how I need to be helping this church. God put me there for a reason, so readers pray for me to do what is right, and to act wisely. Right now, I think the only thing I can do is develop a relationship with the people there so that they will listen to me. It's too early now, but I know God will equip me when the time comes. It's difficult, and it may be harsh of me to pin the name "false prophet" on someone, but she fortune told to this one girl, and told her she would soon get a boyfriend or something --basically told her that she didn't have one. I don't know the exact words--, and when the girl said "I'm in a relationship" she backed up, shocked or with damaged pride, and said "Well, maybe he's not the right one. In fact, I think he's not and you'll probably break up with him soon." Well, the girl has already had two kids and no husband. She stayed for the whole service and left, obviously pretty flustered or angered by the experience. The point is the "prophetess" made a false assumption in God's name, which used to get people put to death. But then the pastor and his wife still took everything the prophetess said seriously, and even asked her to prophesy over me. The woman told me to stick by the head of the church and told the pastor that I was trustworthy. The "prophetess" was a guest speaker.

Ah well, I should go to bed.

"I feel like crap. No, I feel like the crap that crap produces." ~my roommate XP lol

About to go to bed. Night!!