Found an old poem on one of my external hard drives. I found it while I was browsing around through my old school files on the drive, waiting for Chowon to come sit down so that we could watch a show together. We don't have an ISP anymore, since we have unlimited data with tethering, and I was too lazy to tether my phone at that moment, so I didn't post it last night. My plan is maybe to post it tonight. It's called "the Righteous and the Weary" (although, to be honest, I never really liked that name for this poem). I have some comments on the style of the poem and why I don't like certain parts of it, but I'm going to hold myself back from saying any of that in hopes that nobody else will notice the same issues.

A couple of my friends who are looking for jobs have expressed an interest in Vertech. I am coming to terms with the idea that I don't feel like I know anyone very well, so I'm recommending a couple of these friends of mine based on my general impression that they are honest, hard working Christians. I'm a firm believer in the Christian ethic, and so I'm inclined to trust that people with solid theology and a true belief in Jesus Christ will also be great employees... but am I willing to stake my name on that? I guess so, because my name is nothing at all anyway, and God's name is the one which should increase. But if I give my own name based on my trust that God's name will not be abused, then do I defame God if I am wrong? Or would that be me taking responsibility for someone else defaming God and me simultaneously? Is it unwise? Certainly it is.

Why can't the world be simple? Why can't I just trust that people are what they say they are? But, how can I expect that kind of straight-forwardness when I myself have the question, "what am I?" so close to the tip of my tongue? If I don't understand my own ontological essence, how can I expect to understand anyone else's?

What is the worst case scenario... that these people get hired and then totally suck at their jobs, and my boss no longer trusts me as a judge of people. Worse than that, that my company's leadership no longer trusts Christians as honest and hard workers in general.

Now, that said, I'm not recommending just anyone who says "I'm Christian". It's more like I'm recommending anyone who says "I'm Calvinist" (but that's still a poor description of the facts by far). It's more like I'm recommending people who I know to be solid Christians, who attend my church and are actively involved in the ministries there.

Despite my instinctive repulsion at my perceived lack of epistemological warrant for these recommendations, I actually feel very comfortable with the situation.

"No," replied Weston, "it's the Earth."