Haven't blogged much this summer. I think these days I've been venting more to Dan, Chowon, and Gavin, with the occasional coworker.

These days I'm concerned, more than normal, with my future. The idea keeps inexplicably appearing in my mind that I'm wasting my resources. I don't mean money; I mean food, sleep, life, and existence in general. When I think about my ideal future, two things come to mind: first, Chowon, with a family, a nice house, and a job; second, a weathered man on the sidewalk holding a sign that says "The end is coming! REPENT!".

My prayer these days is this:

God, please open the doors to the path of your will, and compel me to enter them. And close the door to every path that you don't want me to take. Please put and keep people in my life who will encourage me to live in the best way for your kingdom, and who will hold me to a standard of goodness and righteousness.

Thank you, God, for all your blessings. Please help me to use what you have given me wisely. I love you, God. Let me never forget the kindness you have shown me.

"I miss you."