Today was a productive day. I did some EPM, and I got a haircut, and I found out my money hasn't been refunded yet.

Ben's gonna help me pay for the date tomorrow, and I'm gonna pretend it was me, because I do fully intend to pay him back when I get my money. The school is a little late getting it to me afaict, so I'm gonna bicker to them about it on Monday and hope I can get some cash at least.

My valentine can make it to the date tomorrow^^ I'm not sure what to make of that. I don't really want to get into the details on my blog. Ian has been prying to find out who it is. All he's gotten out of me is she might be Asian. Word will get around eventually, but I don't want gossip about it. It's nothing at all, and so the last thing we need is LeTourneau gossip. This place has potential to become death itself if I become part of that tree of rumors and gossip and double talk. I mean, I already participate a little, but I really do try to minimize if not eliminate that. I don't want to go through another Dugway........

I have been thinking about how I seem to dislike a place more and more as I am in it, until around the 3 year mark it usually becomes hardly bearable. I really hope that doesn't happen here. I wonder what will happen when I have to stay somewhere for four years. I am a bit worried. I wonder if I will be able to commit to a long term, short-distance relationship when the time comes for that. I wonder if I will be doomed to travel forever to keep my sanity. I wonder if God put this in my heart for a reason. I wonder if I will be tied down by a relationship like Dan and Jess have become. I wonder if I will ever meet someone willing to travel with me...

"But to see the light and to feel the rays... that was always back and forth."