Sometimes, it seems like I look down at myself from above, and I judge myself. Like I say to my self, about myself, "look at that person. I'm glad I am not that way."

I need to talk to my brother soon and "process the process". Will it tell me the way to feel? Maybe it's better if I don't find out the way to feel. Maybe it's better if I never know what I'm thinking.

Will it impact my grades? Will it hurt terribly?

Will they lose their ministry? Will they be ok?

Will I be able to make better decisions in the future? Can I learn from other's mistakes, or am I destined to repeat history?

Are the person I am, the person I want to be, and the person I should be, all walking on the same road? Is it safe to have a person who I want to be? Should I make a distinction between "want to be" and "try to be"?

I belong to the family, and I belong to the situation, but I can't fix it -- and it seems like I shouldn't try to fix it. So what am I?

"'Do you believe the things you're saying?' Yeah, right now, but not that often."