Back to school. Lots to think about this semester. I'm not gonna make much money this year, because work hours have been cut back to like... 14/wk. Lets see... 14*8.50=119/wk ... *15wks = 1785. I will make approximately $1785 this semester, not including expenses.
Today was communion. Sometimes I don't know how to feel when I'm taking it. That is, should I feel super remorseful, or should I feel happy that my sins are forgiven? What does reverence feel like? Then, whenever I start asking myself those questions, I start to think: "maybe I should be asking 'who should I be when I take communion?' instead of 'how should I feel?'" But then... what are the implications of that? Essentially that I'm not that person when I'm not taking communion, right? ... Well, the person I should be when I'm taking communion is the same type of person I should be all the time. But what is my problem that keeps me from being a perfect Christian if it is what I really want to be? What is the glitch in my thought process that keeps me from reaching the fullest potential of my relationship with Christ? Sometimes I wish that someone would come up and tell me exactly what it is, but how would I respond if they did?
Idk. I'm so tired.
Today I saw a girl at LeTU who looked a lot like Chowon from a certain angle. Like, behind and a little to the side. She had long, straight, black hair; she was about Chowon's height and was thin and had Chowon's forward posture; and from that angle it seemed that the shape of her Cheekbones was similar to Chowon's. For a moment I hoped against reason, so strongly, that she would turn around and be Chowon, that I almost believed it would be her. Like as if she came here to surprise me and was being taken around by some LeTourneau students I didn't know. I could see her in my mind, turning her head and smiling at me beautifully with the sun skimming her hair and face. Nevertheless, she turned around and was not Chowon at all. For just an instant I was really let-down, but then I checked myself and thought how ridiculous it was to think she was here. It made me miss Chowon a lot.
"Rosin Flux is the only type you should use for this kind of work."
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
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well crap. I spent like, 15 min writing my thoughts, then lost it all cause a accidentally hit some random combination of button. I'll talk to you in person about it instead.
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