Been extremely busy lately. I have been "in training" for the police job for an extended period of time, and they're letting me start working on my own, but I'm still "on job probation" for 30 days. Tonight I have an 8 page paper to re-write due tomorrow morning at 8. Right now I'm matching up sources to data (I forgot to do in-text citations on the original essay). I feel like I haven't talked to Chowon in a long time, even though it's only been a couple days. I really like talking to her.

As for my disciplinary probation, that's been going well, too. I have another professor meeting tomorrow. I have to make-up a few missed Bible readings tonight. I was supposed to read every night, but it's hard to find time when you work from 4pm to midnight, pound out homework until 2 and wake up at 7.

I had a dream the other night where I forgot everything except for my general knowledge and my memories from a specific 4 days, and I became a baby and was given to a new mother. I remember a man walking me through those 4 days and joking about the things I had done, and how when I had told a lie or been too easily swayed by temptation, I was forgiven. I thought the man was God, but it was only 4 days he was telling me about. As a baby, I was taking a bath and I wrote on the surface of the water with a Sharpie the details of some terrible crime. The ink floated back to me and turned my skin black, and when my new mother saw it she pulled me out and handed me some paper and said she wanted to discuss who I was and why I could write over a game of scrabble. I woke up then. It made me want to talk to my mom. I haven't talked to her in a while because I've been so busy. I'll call her sometime this weekend if I can.

"...that I sometimes imagine you next to me, and everything around disappears for a second"