Alright, so my parents are telling me that they will get me a little netbook soon. I think when that happens I'm gonna blog a bit more.

Lani called today and we talked alittle. I had kinda come to terms with her by then, but I still planned on going to see her this summer. We talked alittle and then I brought up the trip. She had told me "just let me know when you are coming" more than once, and not but a few weeks ago. So I said I thought I might get a round trip ticket for a weekend 3 weeks from now. Since my flight to here got rolled over due to overbooking I got a free round trip ticket to use whenever. I was gonna use that. So she starts saying about how she had her whole~ family over and how her boyfriend recently said he wanted to come over and see her too (he is long distance). She said "that's just so many people to see in one summer. It's too many". The way she said it and stuff, she meant that she didn't want me to come over this summer.

Well, I said "it's cool. if you don't want to meet up, I mean" and she said "no, it's not that I don't want to. it's just..."
I guess she didn't actually say she wanted to call it off, but I wouldn't have wanted her to.

So anyways, it's only been 5 years since we've seen each other. We've only been looking for opportunities to meet up since like 4 years ago, and she said she still wanted to see me, and said her parents were cool with housing me for a day or two or whatever. She told me she loved me after she had been dating this guy for several months without telling me, long distance, after saying to me that it hurt her to be in a long distance relationship with me; after we said we would never say we were in love unless we meant it; after talking literally all the time for 4 years. And she tried to excuse it saying we didn't know each other? I guess we didn't.

Idk. I think it's ridiculous, and I'm alittle mad. I'm done with that... I'm not going to try to meet her again, and... well, I had been meaning to call her just to talk, but I don't plan on that anymore. From now on, Lani is only as much a part of my life as she imposes herself to be, and I am not looking forward to it... She excuses herself really well, but I am still convinced that what she did was wrong..... It kinda hurts talking to her.

Well, I just had to blog that out of my system. Goodnight.


ETA. Oh, I got a new Korean teacher a few weeks ago. Her name is Hyewon (pronounced Heywon, but she spells it wierd), but her Americanized name is Hailey. She's a pretty nice girl. She's Presbyterian, and she is very indecisive (not that those are related...). She's really hard working, she's taking 18 hours this summer, (but I think she's dropping a class). She gave me a book "Conversational English for Koreans" (the title is in Korean). And, like the othaer Korean girls I know, she is amazing on the piano. Meeting her was kinda nerve racking, but I did it. Maybe later, I'l blog about the first time we met, we didn't do any Korean, but we got on a random bus and found a place to eat on the rout, and we fed some ducks. It was an adventure. Much fun. For you Q4 guys if anyone (cough shane) reads this, she isn't my girlfriend and won't be in the future and we don't like each other that way.